My first pregnancy began when i was 19 and hardly married a year. I was young and had a rough childhood and as a teen had suffered from a mix of anorexia and bulimia. I was still battling it when i found out i was pregnant. So instead of just eating healthy for one person, I ate lots and lots more than i should have. I was finally relieved and happy that i could eat without guilt or so i thought. I became depressed and slept and ate all day. As a result i gained 75 lbs. I am embarrassed to say that i had no idea what my stomach and my body would look like after pregnancy. I was shocked and cried for a long time. I could not even look at myself in the mirror. I eventually lost some of the weight and became pregnant again and with that one I gained 65 lbs. My children are now 6 and 3 and I am happy to say that I have lost about 100 lbs by dieting and exercise but the skin and stretch marks remain (as you can see). I admire the people who wear them with pride but i cant seem to do that myself. I hope to one day have a tummy tuck to at least get rid of the skin. This is the first time I have ever shown anyone except my husband my whole stomach and it is kind of relieving to share it.