Fire Marks Almost Four Years Later (Cheri)

In two weeks my moon face girl will four years old. I remember being madly in love with her father and asking the Goddess to let us have a child if it were meant to be. 9 months later there she was. I don’t recall the birth much due to a sedative they gave me during labor which had a side effect of temporary amnesia. I do recall the first time I saw my postpartum belly. Looking down at it and saying “what the hell is that?”. No one had prepared me. In the next few months I struggled with severe post postpartum depression. Every day remains a struggle. Some days I think I’m smoking hot. Other days I’m embarrassed to be in my own skin. I don’t think I began to feel comfortable with my stomach until the day I got a free massage and apologized to my yoga teacher who was studying to be a massage therapist for my stretch marks. She looked baffled and told me she thought they were beautiful and that they reminded her of fire. I took her words symbolically to heart and try my best to think of them as marks of power that carved the gift the universe bestowed upon me. Some days are still a struggle. Especially with a divorce now in the works between moon face girl’s papa and I. For a while, I didn’t believe anyone but my daughter when they told me I was beautiful. Some days I still don’t. But how can I not think this body that birthed my amazing child isn’t beautiful? She’s awesome. She is worth every mark and every cup size I have fluctuated these past years. Every that came from her has brought meaning to my life… She inspired my career path. She continues to inspire me. These marks and saggy breasts are a reminder of her. It’s a reminder that no mater what I do or where I go she’ll be with me forever. Pictures included are breasts, stomach close up, stomach sucked in, and a slightly not so close up of stomach and body…

Pregnancies:1 Births:1
Child’s age:4 in two weeks.
Postpartum: 4 years in two weeks.

9 thoughts on “Fire Marks Almost Four Years Later (Cheri)

  • Wednesday, February 9, 2011 at 3:38 pm

    You ARE beautiful. Every body change that you have gone through has had a purpose. Each mark tells the story of how you grew and birthed your daughter. Embrace it! Womens bodies go through so much in the name of a child. We all need realize that it’s ok to have a new concept of beautiful.

  • Wednesday, February 9, 2011 at 4:08 pm

    poster of Blessed and tortured….

    I think that your ‘sucked in’ looks SO much like mine, i understand your issues. GL in raising your beautiful daughter and stay strong

  • Wednesday, February 9, 2011 at 9:37 pm

    I think you look beautiful :)

  • Thursday, February 10, 2011 at 10:20 pm

    you look wonderful! and if it makes you feel any better i am a professional glamor model and my body looks EXACTLY like yours! absolutely gorgeous!

  • Friday, February 11, 2011 at 1:57 pm

    my tummy looks like urs in the third pic..u look amazing, always remeber what became of your beautiful body!, a beautiful little girl :o)

  • Saturday, February 12, 2011 at 7:31 pm

    Wow, My stomach looks just like yours in the third picture, down to the wrinkle cinching the top of the belly button. Even with weight loss my skin just seems to sag. I look at my daughter who just turned 4 and I see so much life in her eyes. I created that life, this is what I tell myself when I look at my wrinkled stomach. Stay strong and remember you created that beautiful life, and she was worth every wrinkle.

  • Wednesday, February 16, 2011 at 11:45 am

    Thanks everyone :)

  • Friday, April 15, 2011 at 2:01 pm

    Your body reminds me of mine. Thank you for being so brave to do this! It’s brought a lot of comfort knowing I’m not alone!

  • Sunday, June 5, 2011 at 6:28 pm

    I’ve never posted on this site but I came across your post and had to reply. For one- we are def boobie twins and seeing your pics made me feel better about my own chest. Your boobs look great, and mine look like yours, so mine must look great too lol. Second- I think that you are quite beautiful!!!

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