Teen mom with body troubles (Anonymous)

My mother raised me to be body conscious. I was her only daughter out of five children. She was always on my case about my image. During my pre-teen years I was the “super skinny” girl, the envy of my friends, but it was never good enough for me or my mother. Weekly, we would both stand infront of a full length mirror and ‘bash’ our bodies. It was like some sort of weird bond. At about 14, I became bulimic. I cheered on two cheerleading squads and ran track for my middle school. My body couldn’t handle it. I wasn’t getting the nutrients I needed and I would constantly black out and faint. It became a weekly thing. Finally, my mother admitted to herself I had a problem, and I received professional help. After months of treatment at a private facility, I was over it. My mother got treatment too, and it seemed like my body issues were over. At 15 years old, I was in the best shape of my life. Muscular, curvy, and healthy. I loved my body. I met my now husband on vacation when I was 15 and we continued dating, he only lived an hour away. When I was 16, I became pregnant. I was shocked. (( I was stupid, never used protection. )) Although I knew I had everything to lose, I WOULD NOT have an abortion. I was the captain of my cheerleading squad, class president, and pregnant. I didn’t tell anyone for a month. Finally, I told my then boyfriend and our families. I started seeing a doctor. I never told my school, and I continued normally until I became 5 months because I wasn’t showing… at Christmas break I moved to my then boyfriends and home schooled there. I’m so ashamed now to have been embarrassed of my child, but I didn’t know how to handle it… and as it turned out, everyone was more than understanding. Well, as I started to gain weight, my old body loathing self began to haunt me. I feel into deep depression, sleeping way too much, constantly crying… and then one day I just ‘snapped’ out of it. I realized I was being entirely selfish… here I was, blessed with a healthy baby, a loving boyfriend, and a supportive family. My mind set changed and I began to love my baby bump. I got huge!! It seemed like the larger I got, the happier I was… it was so weird, I loved being fat! WELL, I had my baby boy.. and now I’m not so loving it, I work out six times a week, 1-2 hours a day, and I haven’t lost that ‘ pudge ‘. I’m learning, however, to accept it.. and hopefully, as the time goes by… I’ll learn to love it. I’m now married to my sons father, going to school full time, working part time co-coaching pee wee cheerleading and raising my 8 month old! I have A TON of help from my family, and could not make it without them. My mother has made a total 180. =]

7 thoughts on “Teen mom with body troubles (Anonymous)

  • Monday, February 25, 2008 at 10:23 am

    I loved reading your story. I too was someone no one ever thought would have a teenage pregnancy (age 18, out of HS) but we didn’t use protection either…I quit college rather than face my classmates. I was so ashamed, but proud of my little baby at the same time. I hope things continue to go well for you.

  • Monday, February 25, 2008 at 1:17 pm

    That’s awesome and you look great!

  • Wednesday, February 27, 2008 at 9:38 am

    Oh my goodness! our stories are almost exactly the same! I also weighed about 105 lbs when i found out i was pregnate at 18. Now i weigh 113.. U loOk beautiful! best wishes to you and to your family!

  • Wednesday, February 27, 2008 at 1:28 pm

    I’m a little disturbed by seeing a teenager dressed up as a Playboy bunny, BUT your story is proof that not every teenage pregnancy turns out badly. You’re very fortunate that you both have such supportive families. Good luck in the future!

  • Tuesday, March 4, 2008 at 7:45 am

    Wow you look so happy! Great to hear your family got help and now that things are smoother. Would love to see some of your pregnancy shots!? Well done on staying in school and marrying your man! you look like a happy wee family!

  • Tuesday, April 8, 2008 at 10:11 am

    You are a beautful woman…congrats on your achievements you should be very very very proud of yourself!…good luck and God bless you and your family

  • Wednesday, April 23, 2008 at 11:02 am

    You are AMAZING!!!!!!! How in the WORLD do you have time to go to the gym 6 times a week for 1-2 hours while you are also in school full time, working part time AND you have a baby?!!!!! Have you ever considered taking over the world? It sounds like you definitely have the energy to do it!

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