Learning to Love My Body Again (Anonymous)

I am 33 years old. I have 2 children, that today are ages 6 and 8 years old. I nursed both of them. Before pregnancy, I was no super model, but was healthy, around 140 lbs, with perky nice little B cups. With my first pregnancy, I gained 50 lbs. I quickly lost all that weight by 7 months post partum. My body looked better than ever. I had nice boobs and curves that I never did before. I don’t remember what my belly looked like, but it couldn’t have been too bad, because I don’t remember it, LOL. Pregnancy and birth taught me to love my body at whatever size and I felt so sexy when I was pregnant with my first and after. With my second, I gained 70 lbs. This pregnancy really took its toll on my body. It took me almost 2 years to regain my pre-pregnancy weight. I was still nursing, so still had boobs and was confident and content with my body again at that point. But then I developed several autoimmune and chronic health problems: Hashimoto’s thyroiditis, fibromyalgia, chronic fatigue, etc etc. I ballooned up to 200 lbs in less than one year’s time! Then I reclaimed my health and slowly worked my way down to 130 lbs, which is where I am today. My body has really gone through so many weight changes now between the pregnancies, nursing and swelling to D+ cups, and the health problems. I am no longer nursing, so my boobs are like flat pancakes today. My stomach is a wrinkly and saggy. I struggled for the longest time to accept this new body as my own. Especially my breasts. I felt a disconnect with them, like they just weren’t a part of me. Some foreign invaders hanging from my body. But I am slowly learning to love my breasts again. Slowly learning to wear the badges of my life’s journey with honor and pride. It is a slow process. Self-love is hard work! Coming across this website has really helped spur that along. Looking at the pics of all these beautiful moms has really inspired me. We are all so beautiful and should be proud of our womanly, motherly, sexy bodies!

First picture: first pregnancy, 6 months post partum
Second picture: nursing my first
Third picture: pregnant with my second child
Fourth picture: just after the birth of my second child
Rest of the pictures: me today at age 33; my kids are 6 and 8 years old

10 thoughts on “Learning to Love My Body Again (Anonymous)

  • Monday, March 23, 2009 at 10:19 pm

    My belly looks exactly like yours! it is not bad at all congrats!

  • Wednesday, March 25, 2009 at 7:10 pm

    Self love really is hard work! I truer thing has never been said! I’m glad you are taking that journey-you are beautiful!

  • Thursday, March 26, 2009 at 1:51 am

    Your baby bump looks exactly like mine did, made me smile to see it :)

  • Friday, March 27, 2009 at 6:33 pm

    I think you look great! My belly kinda looks like that but more wrinkles around the navel.

  • Monday, April 6, 2009 at 8:46 pm

    My belly looks exactly like yours! Great to see someone else in the same boat. Your sweet nursing picture made me want another (I have 4!).

  • Tuesday, April 7, 2009 at 8:45 pm

    Sister, I have your breasts. It’s tough, but truly, you are beautiful!

  • Thursday, April 16, 2009 at 10:23 am

    Wow… We’re practically twins! I’m 30, with one 7-yr.-old and one 4-yr.-old, and seeing your “now” photos is like looking in a mirror (at least I hope I look that good!). My breasts are a bit bigger, but all that means is there’s more to sag! I would love to go without a bra sometimes, but it’s just not possible anymore. You look so great that I’m honestly feeling better about myself than I’ve felt in years. Thanks!!!

  • Sunday, February 28, 2010 at 7:12 pm

    You look so feminine and natural, and I’m not using that as a cover up- you do! You are a beautiful woman, esp for all that your body and you have been through. I really hope you can love yourself as you should.

    I’m 18 and pregnant and DREADING the bump and post-preggy body soooo much, esp since I’m only getting over anorexia…but your site has helped me realise I won’t be ugly, I will be one of natures beautiful women who have fulfilled their human duty of bearing and nourishing a child. I wish society was less harsh on women!

  • Thursday, March 11, 2010 at 8:35 pm

    My God that is such a beautiful baby. You look fabulous and very small! Beautiful body ma’am.

  • Thursday, September 30, 2010 at 11:55 am

    I have an almost identical tum (mine’s a lot more crinklier above the belly button) and boobs, also have a large, uneven scar from 2 emergency cesareans. It is a struggle to learn to love my body and accept the changes. To feel sexy and beautiful, but to be proud of being a mum. I swing from love to hate almost daily! Especially when lots of friends seem to have escaped the crinkly sags! I considered surgery a few years ago, but you know what? I’ve had enough of being cut open by surgeons and I feel my body deserves to be left in peace. I have 2 healthy, beautiful boys. :-)

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