I Finally Love Myself (Anonymous)

I got pregnant the summer before my senior year of high school. I walked the halls with a huge belly got stares from students and teachers. When I went to the outside world people poked and prodded. Why complete strangers think they have the right to know how old I am I have no idea.
I married my sons father… but once the ring went on my finger… I was his property. I suffered in an abusive marriage for 2 years before I gained enough self esteem to get out. He would tell me that I was fat and no one else would love me and that I could never survive without him. Also, that if I did leave him… he would make my life hell. Which he has done a great job at!
I’ve picked up the pieces I’m a junior in college. I am losing weight and trying so hard to find myself.

I loved being pregnant… the hormones made me feel happy for once in my life. If I didn’t have to deal with rude people all day I would have enjoyed it even more. I gained 40 pounds… lost 30 then gained 10 back… so I still have 20 pounds to go.

I can’t wait to find the right guy who will accept my stretch marks and mommy boobies and my son! I want to have more children… but I am waiting until I’m finished with college!

Number of pregnancies and births: one
Postpartum: 27 months

10 thoughts on “I Finally Love Myself (Anonymous)

  • Thursday, August 6, 2009 at 10:21 am

    Good for you!! You are a great role model for your son! He will know how to properly treat women thanks to your decision! ! PS: Your body is rockin!!!!!

  • Thursday, August 6, 2009 at 11:27 am

    You go, girl! Angele is right, your son has a great mother. And good for you for sticking with school, I’m 22 years old and pregnant for the first time; I’m right in the middle of college myself, and I won’t be quitting! You also have a beautiful body. : )

  • Thursday, August 6, 2009 at 12:14 pm

    wow, you look awesome, and any guy would love your body, just make sure he’s the right one

  • Thursday, August 6, 2009 at 1:48 pm

    Hello Shannon,
    I understand your situation and feel for you. I hope you find the right man and also heal from he last one. I know its difficult but be strong and enjoy college and your little one.

  • Thursday, August 6, 2009 at 2:46 pm

    You look great!

  • Saturday, August 8, 2009 at 7:30 pm

    Congratulations on taking yourself and your son out of an abusive relationship and changing your lives for the better. You look gorgeous, your skin is smooth, your tummy is flat, and your boobs are impeccable. Any man would be crazy to turn you down. Goodluck meeting Mr Right!

  • Sunday, August 9, 2009 at 9:50 pm

    Honey you look good and your boobs look fine.

    Also, you look like you’re in great shape.

  • Monday, August 10, 2009 at 12:53 am

    Oh my gosh! You’re still so very young! I’m proud of you for escaping! and escaping WITH YOUR LIFE! You are one of the lucky ones!

  • Wednesday, August 12, 2009 at 12:53 pm

    I really can relate to your post. You are younger than I was though, I was 21 when I got pregnant. I married my son’s father, tried to make it work, but he was abusive, it was living hell and I finally left him when my son was a little over a year old. Best desicion I have ever made. I really think you are on the rigth path! I used to worry that noone would ever find me attractive again.. and let me just say; I so envy your boobs!, they are so round and full! Mine were totally flat and coverd in stretch marks after pregnancy and breastfeeding.. I was so ashamed of them. But here comes the happy ending: I met a man who loved who I was, sagging boobs and all, and I now have two children, two boys of five and one and a half, a great man by my side and I love my life. And my body. Sagging boobs and all. Good luck to you honey I am sure you will find your way.

  • Thursday, August 13, 2009 at 2:06 pm

    this is a splitting image of me! thankyou so much for sharing! i feel better now! :)

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