I Actually WAS a model – (Anonymous)

And models look exactly the same as everyone else after giving birth!! So many things I would never have believed. I was a model. I did some runway and shoots on site. I had finished high school and was also an emancipated minor at 16: a legal adult. I was also an alcoholic, and a bulimic. I weighed only 106 pounds. I was a mess physically. I had chronic fainting spells and hadn’t had a menstrual period in over a year. But my life changed dramatically! The man who had left me, and I walked away from, found me and rescued me. he pulled me out of the hell hole I was in, He found me a place to live, found me good work, and helped healing me emotionally. He loved me no matter what I was, but worried desperately for my well being. I had started getting healthy, gaining weight and menstruating again. He proposed to me on our 3rd anniversary, and we were pregnant shortly after. I was 5 months pregnant when we were finally married. yes, I was only 19 years old, a skinny red head that just got clean. But this pregnancy was a dream come true for us both- after a verry painful miscarriage I was terrefied for him. but he was born happy. healthy, and strong. 8 pounds 11 ounces of beautiful boy. god what a miracle! I was 190 pounds when I gave birth. I gained allmost 80 pounds in pregnancy. certainly not all baby! I was a size 0 now I don’t even know. I never would have believed I would miss my small, perky breasts! I hated them for being tiny, now i miss them for being perky and unravaged by stretch marks. but I am grateful to breastfeed my son. But what encourages me is that every single day, my body is repairing itself. the weight is coming off, if slowly. the stretch marks may never fully go away, but I remind myself to be proud of them. I am a mother. a mother is the most important thing in the universe because we bring life, nurture life. My little Mikos is worth dying for- what is a few pounds? I would kill for my baby, I shouldnt be crying over my body. My body gave me my beautiful son, who is my whole world.

5 thoughts on “I Actually WAS a model – (Anonymous)

  • Saturday, January 26, 2008 at 2:40 pm

    i like when you mentioned that you marvel at how your body is repairing itself slowly. it is, isn’t it? i see it too in my own body. congratulations on your many miracles; getting clean, being healthy, getting married & birthing your son.

  • Saturday, January 26, 2008 at 4:30 pm

    I’m confused – are these before or after baby pictures? If they’re after pics, where are these stretchmarks you speak of? You still look like a size 0 model to me…

  • Saturday, January 26, 2008 at 5:55 pm

    “My little Mikos is worth dying for- what is a few pounds? I would kill for my baby, I shouldnt be crying over my body. My body gave me my beautiful son, who is my whole world.”

    How well said!!

  • Saturday, January 26, 2008 at 6:00 pm

    Are these your pre-pregnancy or after pregnancy photos? Sweetie, if these are your recent photos after your baby, then you don’t have any more weight to lose. You look great. I’m glad you are at a happy point in your life, and I’m glad you have a partner there to support you. Congrats of your healthy baby, and being healthy yourself.

  • Tuesday, April 8, 2008 at 11:46 pm

    where is the stretch marks?…
    maybe the picture are to ligt?…
    cause i can’t se somethnig…
    or is this before pregnacy?

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