My body, My babies, and Me (Anonymous)

Before I had children, I had no idea. I traveled, lived on the fly and never stayed in one place for more than a month. I never knew what my life was missing until there were two lines on the pregnancy test instead of one. I was 24, apprenticing with an herbal healer and in Massage school. My world was flipped and I spent a lot of time in front of the mirror, pushing my belly out as far as I could to see what I would look like when I was big pregnant. I have to admit that the image I had in my head was very different than what I actually looked like. I gained 90 lbs with my first, then 4 1/2 years later I became pregnant again. I gained 65 lbs with him, then when he was 5 months old I became pregnant again. I gained 45 lbs with my daughter. My body didn’t have the chance to recover from my second pregnancy when I conceived my third child. So yes, I am flabby and squishy and round and I love being the pillow that my children curl into. I love being soft and comforting, physically and emotionally. I love the body my children gave me.

4 thoughts on “My body, My babies, and Me (Anonymous)

  • Friday, January 25, 2008 at 7:48 pm

    Awww…your kids are adorable! Thanks for sharing your story!

  • Friday, January 25, 2008 at 11:48 pm

    Wow! You are beautiful! And your children… GORGEOUS! :D

  • Saturday, January 26, 2008 at 5:25 am

    Thank you so much for sharing your story. Your body, your babies, and especially your attitude are breathtakingly beautiful.

    I’m a mom of 2 now nearly 8 and 6 and just this week have I learned the beauty in being soft. Your words, your experience, is gently carrying me further on the journey.

    Thank you.

  • Saturday, January 26, 2008 at 8:43 pm

    I wish I looked as good as you do.

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