I had a really hard time accepting my body after pregnancy, and still am having a tough time. I look at this site as often as I can and it makes me feel better that I’m not alone and that most people who have children don’t just bounce back immediately. This website gives me a great sense of comfort and community.
I was 163 lbs right before giving birth. And now I weigh 144 at 5’4″ tall. I am still trying to lose at least 10 more lbs but the weight is not coming off easily. I exercise at least three times a week, and I’m eating healthier than ever before. I got a moderate amount of stretch marks during pregnancy (and puberty!) despite using revitol, coco butter, petroleum jelly, vitamin E, and aloe religiously in the last few months of pregancy and mustela for a few months after. I have them on my sides and below my belly (and on my hips, thighs, and butt from puberty). They have now mostly faded.
The pictures I have included are of me sitting down. I still have a pooch, but I guess I always will. I want more children, but I’m scared of what I’ll look like after that. That fear won’t prevent me from having more children, though, because the joy of having a child far outweighs the scars I will bear from having them. But I’m afraid nonetheless. I guess I will just have to grin, exercise, eat well, and bear it!
My daughter is the love of my life. This has been the best and most fulfilling year of my life. I see older women fuss over my child, and I know they are remembering when their children were babies. I see the nostalgia in their eyes. It’s as if they are remembering the first time they fell in love. I am in love with my baby girl. I try to treasure each moment I have with her because who knows what tomorrow will bring.
As much as I struggle with my body, I cannot wait to have another child. I know I will keep struggling, but I know must of us will agree that it’s completely worth it.
