An Everyday Battle (Grace)

Age: 21
Postpartum: 21 months
Number of pregnancies: 1

Everyday my mind changes about my body. One day I will be fine and the next day I’m angry. I have a beautiful baby girl whose 21 months old. Shes happy, healthy, and she knows her momma loves her. I gave birth Jan 4th 2010, via c-section at 6:47pm. She was 9lbs 3.5oz. I gained 36 pounds and manged to lose it all but 5 pounds within 2 months of having her. But, between then and now, Ive gained an extra 15. I look back at pictures and it just makes me sad. How can my fiance love me and I look like this? And he has just gotten better looking… I am lucky, because I believe he loves my body more today than when he met me. But, I don’t. I work out 5 days a week. I run about 2 miles and have managed to lose about 9 pounds but I see no difference. I am on a mission to love myself again, to be healthier and happier. My fiance deserves it, and so does my daughter. The pictures included, are me about 3 months before getting pregnant, and what my stomach looks like now.

4 thoughts on “An Everyday Battle (Grace)

  • Friday, November 11, 2011 at 8:46 pm

    I honestly think you look great!! I wish my belly looked as good as yours! It’ll take time but you’ll get to where you wanna be…in the meantime you have a great body! I’ve been working out a lot too and eating so much healthier. My belly looks like yours but with cellulite, stretch marks, and flabby :( I’m 23 and I have a 2 year old and 4 month old. Good luck mama and be patient :)

  • Monday, November 14, 2011 at 10:24 am

    I felt the same way but recently I have lost a good majority of my weight and I started a physically demanding job which will help me loose the rest of it.
    My husband would say the same thing but I never believed him either. If it wasnt for the stupid media we would all love ourselves! Doesn’t it suck? Just wanted to let ya know that I’m glad you shared. Just let yourself feel what you feel and then try to move past it and just live each day.

    My sister in law did weight watchers and lost a whole TON Of weight. They have support groups and stuff too. I walked everywhere for a good 4 months. that helped me. also don’t deal with pounds, look at SIZES of clothes, especially if you are toning up by excersising. Get a pair of pants that are tight right now, work your ass off and try them on in 2 months. In the mean time try to be happy. I was hard for me too. and so many men are so stupid and shallow and we worry that ours are the same way. It scares the hell outta me. Try to have faith that your man is better than the shallow jerks that are out there.

  • Sunday, November 20, 2011 at 11:10 pm

    I feel the same! I struggle everyday. i have struggled my whole life with my weight and after having my son, who just turned 2, it has gotten worse. you look great! My husband tells me all the time that he loves the way that i look. he says he loves the stretch marks( a mass amount) because he was there for all of them. he looks at it as scars of true beauty. If only we all could.
    this is straying off what you are talking about, but I found this website and think that it is so sad that we all feel this way about our beautiful selfs. there are some women i am sure would love to trade the stretch mark free bodies to be able to have what we have been blessed with.
    I wish i could practice feeling what i am saying!

    Back to you! hang in there with the weight. i always seem to find that when i stop thinking about losing wieght, i lose it!

    Take care!

  • Sunday, December 18, 2011 at 11:45 pm

    I pray to the Lord I look as nice as you after I lose weight when this second pregnancy is in our past. You look seriously lovely and should be very proud of yourself. xoxo

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