Almost 5 Years Later (Anonymous)

I became pregnant at 19 and gave birth 2 months after I turned 20 to a little girl. Didn’t know till I was over 3 months along that I was even pregnant. Had NO symptoms at all. Peeing a lot and vanishing period were normal for me haha, so thought nothing of it, till I just had a “feeling” and tested. Turned positive immediately. I never wanted children, so I was going to abort, but hormones took over and I obviously had her and very glad I did. I am 5’9″ and weighed about 127lbs at the time I found out I was pregnant and the day I gave birth I was 164lbs. Right after delivery, I weighed 140lbs, then 3 weeks later, was down to 130lbs. I have been bouncing around 119lbs-138lbs now for almost 5 years. I have very few very light stretch marks on my stomach, but my breasts are covered in them. I was an A cup and went to a full D cup before I “dried up”. I chose not to breast feed for personal reasons. My breasts literally deflated and until recently were so flabby and gross I was mortified and ashamed. But they have filled out to a full B cup (weird, don’t hear of that really happening). June of ’09, I had a complete miscarriage and again, had no idea I was pregnant. I was trying out Nuva Ring and it failed.. I was feeling terrible and took it out about 2 months after use (I didn’t give myself a week to have a period inbetween months, just put a new one it) and a week later, started bleeding. Thought it was my period, but I bled very heavily and passed a ton of clots. Then, I passed the entire little placenta and sac.. I didn’t know what it was, so I took it to the ER with me in a baggy. Sounds gross, but I thought it was a piece of my uterus that had fallen out or a tumor and was really scared! They confirmed it was a miscarriage and I had been about 6 wks pregnant. I was honestly thankful I miscarried, I didn’t want another baby. I had a tubal ligation (burned only) November of ’09 at age 23. I DO NOT recommend this!! I have since had THE WORST pms ever! Severe nausea, hot flashes, terrible mood swings, random bouts of crying, alcohol intolerance, anxiety attacks, breast swelling to a full size or more larger and painful, cramping so severe I am doubled over in pain and in tears… list goes on. I deal with this about half of each month. Doctor whom did it wont see me again because I have Medi-Cal (but he had no problem doing the procedure, go figure). But, I am glad for the most part I can’t become pregnant again, one child is enough for me:-)

4 thoughts on “Almost 5 Years Later (Anonymous)

  • Tuesday, April 12, 2011 at 1:41 pm

    You look just beautiful!

    I am sorry about all your hardships from the tubal. More women should hear your story so that more and more people can understand that ANY surgery, especially ones that alter our hormonal or endocrine system can be harmful to our overall physical and mental health. Many doctors will not come to terms with this. I feel for you and hope many women will see this and learn!endr

  • Wednesday, April 13, 2011 at 6:59 pm

    You look beautiful! I had never heard of breasts growing a full cup size after puberty. Lucky you!! I’m very sorry that you had such difficulties with the tubal. I agree with the former poster, ANY surgery carries risks and there will always be people who don’t tolerate it as well. Too bad doctors aren’t more understanding.

  • Sunday, April 17, 2011 at 7:50 pm

    You look fantastic. I have to say though, whoever told you that you were only 6 weeks along is not right. I’ve had multiple miscarriages. A 6 week miscarriage looks like a small clot. You wouldn’t see anything significant. To see what you described, you would have to at least been closer to the second trimester.

  • Monday, June 13, 2011 at 9:59 pm

    i think u have been amazingly brave. i don’t really understand the whole medi-cal reference because i’m from australia so i dont understand except that he screwed up and he doesnt want to face that? you look amazing and i hope u stay strong

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