First..I love all of you women who have posted your beautiful selves on here! I worked up the courage to put up my photo!! I look at all of you and see such raw beauty. Maybe when this is up on the site, I’ll feel beautiful by association! Struggling with body image for so long, it’s a wild thing trying to accept such a dramatic change to your self. After a really sad and lonely pregnancy, I had a big healthy baby boy! 9 pounds 6 ounces. He is four months old as I type this.. I still reach down and pat my tummy. It’s hard to get used to not having someone in there. I am in awe.I must say. I MADE this amazing creature! With a strength I did not know I had, I pushed him into this reality. I feel stronger than before. I love him.And Though I cry sometimes over my sagging stomach and purple marks,sigh when I catch a glimpse of my reflection,tear when I see an old photo of a younger nymph-like me..I don’t want to know a world without this child in it.