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A New Body With My New Life (Anonymous)

First..I love all of you women who have posted your beautiful selves on here! I worked up the courage to put up my photo!! I look at all of you and see such raw beauty. Maybe when this is up on the site, I’ll feel beautiful by association! Struggling with body image for so long, it’s a wild thing trying to accept such a dramatic change to your self. After a really sad and lonely pregnancy, I had a big healthy baby boy! 9 pounds 6 ounces. He is four months old as I type this.. I still reach down and pat my tummy. It’s hard to get used to not having someone in there. I am in awe.I must say. I MADE this amazing creature! With a strength I did not know I had, I pushed him into this reality. I feel stronger than before. I love him.And Though I cry sometimes over my sagging stomach and purple marks,sigh when I catch a glimpse of my reflection,tear when I see an old photo of a younger nymph-like me..I don’t want to know a world without this child in it.









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  • Nikki Saturday, June 7, 2008, 9:00 pm

    Oh my goodness, I absolutely love the pic of him smiling at you at the breast. I love how they just pop off real quick, smile at you, and hurry back on the nipple.

  • Milk Mama Saturday, June 7, 2008, 10:54 pm

    You shouldn’t just feel beauty by association! I looked at your photos before reading your story. Every photo brought a smile to my face. I was in awe of how beautiful these photos are. There is so much love in these photos. A bond that is unspeakable. You are so beautiful! My favorite photo? The one of your son looking into your eyes after nursing. What a wonderful moment!

    If you click on my name, I blog about my breastfeeding experience. I am 18 months into an extended breastfeeding experience with my daughter.

    God bless you!!!
    -MM

  • Lizz Sunday, June 8, 2008, 12:58 am

    Wonderful shots! Beautiful body! You look so happy.

  • Kristin Sunday, June 8, 2008, 11:32 am

    What a great post! I absolutely have to know if you don’t mind what kind of nursing bra that is!? I am desperate to find one that is as functional yet pretty like the one in your pic. Truly, could you email me at outsidetheboxjewelry@gmail.com if you read this?

    AND your little one is SO CUTE!

    K.

  • Autumn Sunday, June 8, 2008, 12:44 pm

    I absolutely love this post, you and your son are so beautiful.

  • jaclyn Sunday, June 8, 2008, 2:11 pm

    I looked at your photos and was amazed you are my body double I have a 2 year old and a 4 month old too. Is your hair dreaded?I miss my dreads so much its been almost 4 years since they have been gone..

  • Jill Sunday, June 8, 2008, 4:11 pm

    You are so beautiful! I love your red dreads and your nose ring. And your son looks so happy and content – I can definitely relate to pining occasionally for the “old” life, but not wanting any life that doesn’t include my baby! I think they truly bring out the best in us!

  • Mandi Monday, June 9, 2008, 12:10 am

    I LOVE BREASTFEEDING! The second pic is FANTASTIC! (they all are beautiful, but that one made me SMILE) I love the look on my 16 month old’s face when he is at “his booby’s”. :) You look very happy, as you should be. Beautiful baby, beautiful mother. Best of luck!

  • beki Monday, June 9, 2008, 5:22 am

    you looks so fantastic, and what beautiful pictures you have posted, your son is just gorgous I love all the nursing pics.

    you tummy looks so similar to mine, its beautiful and your stretchmarks are just a lovely reminder of what you have achieved by bringing your son into the world, be proud of yourself you are beautiful.

  • Helen Monday, June 9, 2008, 8:19 am

    You’re simply beautiful, and your son is one handsome boy!! It makes me sad that you had a really lonely pregnancy- I’ve had a few of those, too… :( I hope you get a chance to make some good mama-friends now that he’s here- they’re a lifesaver! Blessings to you and your boy! You’re simply beautiful, and your son is one handsome boy!! It makes me sad that you had a really lonely pregnancy- I’ve had a few of those, too… :( I hope you get a chance to make some good mama-friends now that he’s here- they’re a lifesaver! Blessings to you and your boy! <3

  • lottie Monday, June 9, 2008, 10:06 am

    you two are so beautiful. you look amazing, mama. the belly will shrink, the marks will fade, but your bond with your son will grow and grow and mamhood will get better and better. love the nursing shots. i weaned my 2.5 year old son a few weeks ago and seeing these shots bring back so many wonderful memories. keep up the good work, there is nothing as perfect as a mama and kiddo nursing.

  • emanuela Monday, June 9, 2008, 5:11 pm

    you two are so beautiful to look at!

  • myself Monday, June 9, 2008, 10:19 pm

    well…first time i ever react/
    no words.
    amazing
    beutiful

    thanks

  • kat Tuesday, June 10, 2008, 5:50 pm

    i am also a red dreadie mama! you are beautiful, and your son is lovely! Congrats!

  • ahipmama Wednesday, June 11, 2008, 8:37 pm

    raw beauty…precisely. thanks so much for sharing…blessings.

  • Brandy Friday, June 20, 2008, 3:49 am

    Thnx for posting A-1 photos such a happy baby.

  • Bonnie Thursday, September 11, 2008, 10:04 am

    Hey lovely momma!!
    I’m reading this the morning after you sent the link and I can’t stop crying! What you wrote, along with your beautiful photos really touch my heart…
    What wonderful comments you’ve received too!
    I can’t wait to join you all in the wondrous world of motherhood…My little lady will be here so soon!

    Lots of love beautiful lady!
    xoxox

  • michael Wednesday, November 11, 2009, 7:41 pm

    beautiful faerie fertile goddess…
    great mother of earth and men…
    and more faieries of course…
    you break my heart and make me cry…
    you are all potential…
    you are our future…
    i love you..

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