3 Years, 3 Surgeries, and 3 Kids Later (Anonymous)

When I met my husband I was a 117lb senior in highschool. We got married December after we graduated (I was 18). 4 months into our marriage I found out I was pregnant. My first pregnancy was text book until I hit 37 weeks and Toxemia set in and I ballooned. I was 135lbs when i got pregnant and when I gave birth I weighed 187lbs. Fast forward and I decided to get the Mirena for birthcontrol. Well 2 months into it the IUD perforated my uterus. So we had to have a laproscopic surgery to have it removed. I had lost the weight (down to 140) and then went back up 186 (after antidepressants). When my gorgeous daughter was 9 months old I found out I was pregnant again! On Christmas eve (I was 20 weeks pregnant) I found out I was pregnant with identical twin boys. We were excited and nervous. I had a good pregnancy for twins, I started having contractions at 30 weeks and finally gave birth to my boys (5lbs 2 oz and 5lbs 10 oz). I went in weighing 199 lbs. Then came surgery number 2. I had a tubal ligation before I left the hospital. When the boys were about 6 months old I found out I had a gastral hernia (it was inbetween my belly button and my rib cage). So there was ANOTHER surgery. There has been a lot of stresses (Lost jobs, moving, money, etc…) And I currently weigh 188 (Just lost 4 lbs) I hate being an almost plus size and hate my body. My stretchmarks and scars and the bulges. My husband is so supportive of me, but I used to be the perfect body and now, I hate my body. I look in the mirror and all I see is fat. I am currently working on walking everynight and not eating so badly. But it is so HARD. This website has made me feel better. And those twin post pregnancy pictures I see my body and know im not the only one. I just see these moms that have just had kids and are into prepregnancy jeans and have like 1 stretchmark, and I feel like ive failed. But I have my 3 beautiful kids and a wonderful husband and for now that enough! Maybe a swimsuit body after some hard work?

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8 thoughts on “3 Years, 3 Surgeries, and 3 Kids Later (Anonymous)

  • Tuesday, February 24, 2009 at 11:16 am

    I look a lot like you. One thing that helps is to make sure you get clothes that flatter your figure now and not to try and make what you have work. I don’t know if the pants you have on in the picture are just to make apoint or if you wear htem often, but going up a few sizes minimizes the places your body boils over. I had to make the decision to buy up 2 sizes than I was currently wearing, and I feel so much better about muself when I look in the mirror and I am not falling out of my clothes.

  • Tuesday, February 24, 2009 at 5:16 pm

    I agree, wear clothes that flatter you now, but there is hope for the future. I had twins, and I went from a size 12 to a 4. I worked really hard over the past year. I was able to improve the belly as well. Hang in there – you look great and you can get back to your old size if you want to. Kiss those beautiful babies of yours!

  • Tuesday, February 24, 2009 at 8:46 pm

    You’ve been through so much. Twins, and so quickly after having your first! Wow– you’re amazing! Try to be easy on yourself and take it one day at a time. You’re beautiful!

  • Wednesday, February 25, 2009 at 8:36 pm

    This is me (Sarah). Your story really gave me chills–good chills because it just seems that you’ve been so incredibly blessed! You’ve been through so much–more than A LOT of women your age. You are strong and beautiful. Not only am I blessed to call you a friend, but I’m blessed to be able to share motherhood with you. Stretchmarks and all. You’ve been working so hard and you are my role model. ♥ I love you!

  • Friday, February 27, 2009 at 6:31 pm

    Wow, you’ve been through so much! Hang in there and don’t be so hard on yourself. :) ::hugs::

  • Tuesday, March 3, 2009 at 11:15 pm

    Thanks for the tip guys. I recently went shopping and bought some very flattering clothes. Those were the last pair of jeans I had :( Now I have clothes YAY! Now I have added Biking to my daily workout. Trying to be good

  • Sunday, March 8, 2009 at 2:01 pm

    It will come back! Having twins keeps you so busy you tend to forget about yourself. Once you decide to find the time for you again – and you will – you will firm up again with a little effort and a healthy diet.

  • Saturday, March 21, 2009 at 6:07 pm

    Keep up the hard work, girl! You are amazing! The results will be so amazing!!! :D

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