When I met my husband I was a 117lb senior in highschool. We got married December after we graduated (I was 18). 4 months into our marriage I found out I was pregnant. My first pregnancy was text book until I hit 37 weeks and Toxemia set in and I ballooned. I was 135lbs when i got pregnant and when I gave birth I weighed 187lbs. Fast forward and I decided to get the Mirena for birthcontrol. Well 2 months into it the IUD perforated my uterus. So we had to have a laproscopic surgery to have it removed. I had lost the weight (down to 140) and then went back up 186 (after antidepressants). When my gorgeous daughter was 9 months old I found out I was pregnant again! On Christmas eve (I was 20 weeks pregnant) I found out I was pregnant with identical twin boys. We were excited and nervous. I had a good pregnancy for twins, I started having contractions at 30 weeks and finally gave birth to my boys (5lbs 2 oz and 5lbs 10 oz). I went in weighing 199 lbs. Then came surgery number 2. I had a tubal ligation before I left the hospital. When the boys were about 6 months old I found out I had a gastral hernia (it was inbetween my belly button and my rib cage). So there was ANOTHER surgery. There has been a lot of stresses (Lost jobs, moving, money, etc…) And I currently weigh 188 (Just lost 4 lbs) I hate being an almost plus size and hate my body. My stretchmarks and scars and the bulges. My husband is so supportive of me, but I used to be the perfect body and now, I hate my body. I look in the mirror and all I see is fat. I am currently working on walking everynight and not eating so badly. But it is so HARD. This website has made me feel better. And those twin post pregnancy pictures I see my body and know im not the only one. I just see these moms that have just had kids and are into prepregnancy jeans and have like 1 stretchmark, and I feel like ive failed. But I have my 3 beautiful kids and a wonderful husband and for now that enough! Maybe a swimsuit body after some hard work?
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I look a lot like you. One thing that helps is to make sure you get clothes that flatter your figure now and not to try and make what you have work. I don’t know if the pants you have on in the picture are just to make apoint or if you wear htem often, but going up a few sizes minimizes the places your body boils over. I had to make the decision to buy up 2 sizes than I was currently wearing, and I feel so much better about muself when I look in the mirror and I am not falling out of my clothes.
I agree, wear clothes that flatter you now, but there is hope for the future. I had twins, and I went from a size 12 to a 4. I worked really hard over the past year. I was able to improve the belly as well. Hang in there – you look great and you can get back to your old size if you want to. Kiss those beautiful babies of yours!
You’ve been through so much. Twins, and so quickly after having your first! Wow– you’re amazing! Try to be easy on yourself and take it one day at a time. You’re beautiful!
This is me (Sarah). Your story really gave me chills–good chills because it just seems that you’ve been so incredibly blessed! You’ve been through so much–more than A LOT of women your age. You are strong and beautiful. Not only am I blessed to call you a friend, but I’m blessed to be able to share motherhood with you. Stretchmarks and all. You’ve been working so hard and you are my role model. ♥ I love you!
Wow, you’ve been through so much! Hang in there and don’t be so hard on yourself. :) ::hugs::
Thanks for the tip guys. I recently went shopping and bought some very flattering clothes. Those were the last pair of jeans I had :( Now I have clothes YAY! Now I have added Biking to my daily workout. Trying to be good
It will come back! Having twins keeps you so busy you tend to forget about yourself. Once you decide to find the time for you again – and you will – you will firm up again with a little effort and a healthy diet.
Keep up the hard work, girl! You are amazing! The results will be so amazing!!! :D