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I don’t feel pretty anymore. (Amanda)

September 11, 2012

Age – 21
Pregnancies – 1
Births – Due Dec. 4th, 2012

Hi, I am 25 weeks pregnant. I was 209 pounds before my pregnancy and have gained 21 pounds so far. My BMI indicates that I was MORBIDLY obese before my pregnancy, but that is far from true. I think BMI’s are a joke, honestly.

I have always been between 150-175 and always felt GREAT! I don’t know if it was because I was going through a lot in my life at the time, or because I was just comfortable with my fiance’ (we recently married <3) but I put on some weight in the last couple of years. My husband is very supportive and tells me everyday how beautiful I am. I think my biggest problem is my new stretch marks on my belly. I was hopeful that I wouldn’t get any, but of course, lo and behold, they showed up at about 20 weeks. :( I have always had stretch marks on my thighs and sides, but NEVER on my belly, so I always felt comfortable in a 2 piece. Not anymore! I don’t feel comfortable in CLOTHES let alone a bathing suit anymore. I just think they are terrible and I cry sometimes when I look at them.

I want to feel sexy for my husband. I want to be in shape and I want to look good. I have also had a scare with gestational diabetes and I just did my 3 hour glucose test 3 days ago and we are waiting for the results. I have the worst anxiety about this pregnancy and I try to control it because I want to be strong for my husband and my daughter, but some days it is just so much to handle. I just hope one day I can feel better about myself. :/

Pic 1 – Me at my thinnest
Pic 2 – Me at my ideal weight
Pic 3 – Me pre-baby
Pic 4 – 23 weeks pregnant on my wedding day
Pic 5 – 25 weeks prego
Pic 6 – 25 week belly :/

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4 Responses to “I don’t feel pretty anymore. (Amanda)”

  1. Katrina Says:
    September 11th, 2012 at 5:39 pm

    I think you are pretty :)
    And stretch marks come to people of ALL shapes and sizes, no matter what their BMI! I was on the low-end of that ridiculous number, and I still got marks on my tummy from baby #1…now I am 33 weeks with baby #2, and the marks are still there…they do fade, and I think I will feel comfortable in a two-piece after I loose the baby weight.
    I call them love scars, not stretch marks.

    Hold your head high! Mama’s who love themselves make babies who love themselves :)

    xo

  2. Danielle Says:
    September 12th, 2012 at 9:06 am

    I think you look great! Honestly I felt like I was speaking for myself when I read your story. You sound EXACTLY like me. I was 170 pounds before I got pregnant (two weeks after suffering a miscarriage at 6 weeks). I felt great at first, very hopeful I wasn’t going to get and stretch marks when all of a sudden I exploded in them around 25 weeks. I also am very self-concious about them and worry that I won’t feel pretty for my husband but like you, he loves me no matter what. My stretch marks are FAR worse than yours by the way, I am currently 39 weeks and 6 days. Like I said, I think you look great and your body did something amazing that you should be proud of! Don’t worry about the little things, just think you’ll be holding a little angel in your arms in a couple months and it will all be worth it. Anyway, your husband finds you sexy no matter what and you are giving him a beautiful daughter. He’s the only one that will be seeing your body anyway!! I think you’re beautiful!!! Good luck with everything!!

  3. Kelsey Says:
    September 12th, 2012 at 6:59 pm

    You are beautiful! Really! I am not just saying that. I know how you feel though! I am 21 weeks and just feel fat! But something that helps me is to remind myself that it is such a blessing and miracle that my body has the ability to create a sweet angel! That will be worth every pound! Also something that helps me feel better about myself is eating healthy and exercising. I feel so much better when I am more careful about what I eat and when I take the time to work out/go on a walk.

  4. Amanda Says:
    September 26th, 2012 at 9:43 pm

    Thank you everyone for the sweet words (: I am now 30 weeks pregnant and I have grown more accustomed to my new body. I have MANY more stretch marks, but my husband says they are my beauty marks *Dawwwww*
    He has been super supportive and I think that if I was doing this alone that I would be a lot worse off. I am so in love with this little girl and haven’t even met her yet. She is worth EVERY mark!

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