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I don’t feel pretty anymore. (Amanda)

September 11, 2012

Age – 21
Pregnancies – 1
Births – Due Dec. 4th, 2012

Hi, I am 25 weeks pregnant. I was 209 pounds before my pregnancy and have gained 21 pounds so far. My BMI indicates that I was MORBIDLY obese before my pregnancy, but that is far from true. I think BMI’s are a joke, honestly.

I have always been between 150-175 and always felt GREAT! I don’t know if it was because I was going through a lot in my life at the time, or because I was just comfortable with my fiance’ (we recently married <3) but I put on some weight in the last couple of years. My husband is very supportive and tells me everyday how beautiful I am. I think my biggest problem is my new stretch marks on my belly. I was hopeful that I wouldn’t get any, but of course, lo and behold, they showed up at about 20 weeks. :( I have always had stretch marks on my thighs and sides, but NEVER on my belly, so I always felt comfortable in a 2 piece. Not anymore! I don’t feel comfortable in CLOTHES let alone a bathing suit anymore. I just think they are terrible and I cry sometimes when I look at them.

I want to feel sexy for my husband. I want to be in shape and I want to look good. I have also had a scare with gestational diabetes and I just did my 3 hour glucose test 3 days ago and we are waiting for the results. I have the worst anxiety about this pregnancy and I try to control it because I want to be strong for my husband and my daughter, but some days it is just so much to handle. I just hope one day I can feel better about myself. :/

Pic 1 – Me at my thinnest
Pic 2 – Me at my ideal weight
Pic 3 – Me pre-baby
Pic 4 – 23 weeks pregnant on my wedding day
Pic 5 – 25 weeks prego
Pic 6 – 25 week belly :/

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5 Responses to “I don’t feel pretty anymore. (Amanda)”

  1. Katrina Says:
    September 11th, 2012 at 5:39 pm

    I think you are pretty :)
    And stretch marks come to people of ALL shapes and sizes, no matter what their BMI! I was on the low-end of that ridiculous number, and I still got marks on my tummy from baby #1…now I am 33 weeks with baby #2, and the marks are still there…they do fade, and I think I will feel comfortable in a two-piece after I loose the baby weight.
    I call them love scars, not stretch marks.

    Hold your head high! Mama’s who love themselves make babies who love themselves :)

    xo

  2. Danielle Says:
    September 12th, 2012 at 9:06 am

    I think you look great! Honestly I felt like I was speaking for myself when I read your story. You sound EXACTLY like me. I was 170 pounds before I got pregnant (two weeks after suffering a miscarriage at 6 weeks). I felt great at first, very hopeful I wasn’t going to get and stretch marks when all of a sudden I exploded in them around 25 weeks. I also am very self-concious about them and worry that I won’t feel pretty for my husband but like you, he loves me no matter what. My stretch marks are FAR worse than yours by the way, I am currently 39 weeks and 6 days. Like I said, I think you look great and your body did something amazing that you should be proud of! Don’t worry about the little things, just think you’ll be holding a little angel in your arms in a couple months and it will all be worth it. Anyway, your husband finds you sexy no matter what and you are giving him a beautiful daughter. He’s the only one that will be seeing your body anyway!! I think you’re beautiful!!! Good luck with everything!!

  3. Kelsey Says:
    September 12th, 2012 at 6:59 pm

    You are beautiful! Really! I am not just saying that. I know how you feel though! I am 21 weeks and just feel fat! But something that helps me is to remind myself that it is such a blessing and miracle that my body has the ability to create a sweet angel! That will be worth every pound! Also something that helps me feel better about myself is eating healthy and exercising. I feel so much better when I am more careful about what I eat and when I take the time to work out/go on a walk.

  4. Amanda Says:
    September 26th, 2012 at 9:43 pm

    Thank you everyone for the sweet words (: I am now 30 weeks pregnant and I have grown more accustomed to my new body. I have MANY more stretch marks, but my husband says they are my beauty marks *Dawwwww*
    He has been super supportive and I think that if I was doing this alone that I would be a lot worse off. I am so in love with this little girl and haven’t even met her yet. She is worth EVERY mark!

  5. sara Says:
    September 27th, 2014 at 4:25 am

    Omg you look amazing! Kids makes me feel so amazing! Yes you looked sexier before but kids. My husband did too. kids make me so amazing and look so cute, my mombod doesn’t bother me or my husband at all.

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