Unplanned, But Not a Mistake (Anonymous)

I was 15 years old, the “boy” I thought I was in Love with, had just broke up with me. I decided to get back at him by sleeping with one of his friends. It was just suppose to be a one time thing just to make my ex, the guy i thought was the love of my life, mad. Well a month later, no period. I took a pregnancy test and it said positive. I was just in complete shock. The guy that was just suppose to be a one time thing, just became the father of my child. At first I kept saying I was going to get an abortion, b/c the father was black and I am white. I didn’t want to deal with all the looks and shame people were going to give me, and because the changes that my body would go through. Then I thought I don’t even believe in abortions, and who cares if i get big? After about a month into the pregnancy, I went in to have my first ultrasound. As soon as I saw MY baby on that screen, I FELL IN LOVE!! I decided I was going to keep the baby. I knew having a baby at 15 was going to be extremely diffucult. But I was willing to accept the consequences. On January 2, 2008 I gave birth to a perfect 6 pounds 4 ounces baby girl! She’s 18 months old now and i’m 17, people do stare at me sometimes, and I get rude remarks, but it doesn’t bother me. All that matters is what I think. My friends ditched me b/c I couldn’t just drop what I was doing anymore to hang out with them. A irresponsible act gave me the greatest gift ever. I wouldn’t trade my baby girl for anything in this world! I truelly have found the love of my life.
I love my body, and call my stretch marks, Beauty marks. I look at my body in the mirror from time to time and think, I brought a beautiful baby into this world, and I would go through all the changes again, in a heartbeat.

1st pic-18 months post partum
2nd pic-me and my baby girl

7 thoughts on “Unplanned, But Not a Mistake (Anonymous)

  • Tuesday, August 4, 2009 at 9:13 am

    I’m black and my babies father is white. I would never for a minute think of aborting my child because of that. I’m glad you decided against doing that.. You’re daughter is beautiful.

  • Tuesday, August 4, 2009 at 2:08 pm

    I am more than 10 years older than you and I hope one day to have just a bit of the self acceptance that you have for yourself! You are truely beautiful! Daughter, is adorable!!!

  • Tuesday, August 4, 2009 at 2:41 pm

    You impress me. Your self-esteem is far more intact than that of many of us more than 2x your age. Good for you.

  • Tuesday, August 4, 2009 at 8:04 pm

    You are a true inspiration! You and your daughter are sooo beautiful! More young moms and moms-to-be should have your outlook on life!

  • Wednesday, August 5, 2009 at 7:03 am

    The more colours the better sweetheart, its only the colourblind that can’t see the beauty of colours! You’re one brave mom and your little possum is as cute as a button. Take care and be proud of yourself!

  • Wednesday, August 5, 2009 at 1:57 pm

    What is there to be ashamed of? She is a miracle, and I’m glad you don’t let anyone convince you otherwise. Being a young mom is hard, but it seems like you have the right idea putting her first before other things that are important to 17 year olds. good job!

  • Saturday, August 8, 2009 at 7:38 pm

    We are tummy twins :) And your daughter is an angel! Congratulations on taking on the hardest job in the world as a teenager, I bet you are doing a better job than a lot of the people who look down on you without knowing who you are. Great job mama!

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