I’m trying really hard to love myself. I’m trying not to be embarrsed for my fiance to hold my hand when we go out. I’m trying to go on every day without fearing seeing my naked body before and fter I shower. I’m trying to embrace the fat that I lost 70 lbs. I’m trying to to feel like my only chance at being beautiful again is through plastic surgery. I’m trying every morning that I wake up not to feel guilty for feeling this way….
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i know its tough, but you look great! stretchmarks will fade with time, my son is 10 months old now and mine are on my belly. they’re now silvery with a bit of a pink tinge still. i hated them, they hated me. it was just bad. but my husband tells me he doesnt even see them and loves my new body (i think its the bigger butt lol). to be honest, sometimes when im laying on the couch relaxing, i’ll touch them just because i like the way they’re indented on my skin and so soft. i grew a life!!
Don’t ever feel guilty about your feelings. Trust me, I went through 2 years of hating myself, and hating myself for hating myself. I felt guilty for the feelings I had, such as my weight, the stretchmarks, etc. I too felt like my only option was plastic surgery and then I would feel guilty cause that would mean wasting money that could be spent on my children. Eventually I came to accept myself. I keep telling myself on days when I feel I can’t handle looking at my stretchmarks or if I can’t fit into a pair of pants ” There are others who have it much worse than I ever will” It makes me grateful for the things I do have.
You might not see it for a long time but you are beautiful. Beauty has nothing to do with your body; it has to do with your attitude. Hold your head up high and be proud of who you are and then your beauty will shine.
My best advice is to talk about your feelings everyday. Talk to your husband, talk to your friends, talk to a doctor..but keep on talking. Let your feelings be heard and then eventually you’ll start feeling better.
I was so emotional when I wrote this. Ya know you wake up and have good days and bad days. I still am struggling a bit a month later, but as more time goes by day by day I am learning how to love mysefl and my body. It sure helps having so much support from everyone on this site.
Wow! You look great and I hope you come to realize that! You did a great job losing the weight! :)
Hi I also had really bad stretch marks, i was a size 10/12 before falling pregnant I then went on to having a 9 pound baby boy and I was still a size 16 after giving birth, my body was covered with really dark stretch marks everywere, they were really upsetting me until someone told me about bio oil, it’s an oil that really speeds up the fading of your stretch marks, you will notice the difference within a few weeks, its available at hollands and barrets, the health shop or even boots xx
Thank you for posting this. I got stretch marks everywhere as well. On my legs too. I never knew you could get them there. I prepared myself for the tummy, breasts, hips, butt and thighs. I figured I would just cover them up. Not to easy when there on your legs. I was dreading this summer because I was too emabarrassed to show my legs. You have no choice when its hot out. I am proud to say that I managed to go to the zoo today in a pair of capri’s. I’m working my way up to shorts : )