I Love My Body Now (Anonymous)

I have always had body issues, as many women do. I always thought I was fat, even when I wasn’t. I never felt that I had a beautiful body, I had too many stretch marks, my tummy was too big, etc. When I became pregnant with my daughter, I weighed 180 lbs. I was 20 lbs. more then I felt ‘okay’ at. I had some morning sickness through the first 4 months and only gained 3 lbs. Then, the morning sickness subsided, and I started to eat. I loved being pregnant. I loved the way my body looked. I felt beautiful. I loved feeling my big tummy and feeling my daughter move. I loved how large and full my breasts became. I was in love with every inch of my body. By the time I went to my final check up, two weeks late, I weighed 238 lbs. The number scared me a little, but I was pregnant and didn’t even consider that at a moment very soon, I would no longer be pregnant. When my daughter was born, and the few weeks afterward, I didn’t have the time or energy to criticize my body. I was also so proud of how strong I was to be able to carry and deliver a life. There finally came a moment where I looked in the mirror and realized that I was huge, and no longer pregnant. For a moment, I hated my body. But I realized that I didn’t want to be that kind of role model for my daughter. I knew she would be more likely to hate and criticize her body if she watched me do the same. I also realized I wanted to be a good example of health, including having healthy eating habits. When my daughter turned 6 weeks old, I joined Weight Watchers and between that and breast feeding, I was able to get down to 152. While my body is not ‘perfect’ by the standards of our media, I love it more now then I ever have before. I finally came to realize how strong and capable my body is, how strong and capable I am. I was able to carry and nourish a life outside of my own. And this website also helped. I was able to look at other women, whose bodies are not that much different than mine, and see how beautiful all of these women are. Thank you.

-31 years old
-2 pregnancies, 1 birth
-1 daughter, 3 1/2 years old, 3 1/2 years PP


7 thoughts on “I Love My Body Now (Anonymous)

  • Wednesday, January 13, 2010 at 11:49 pm

    I’m so glad you love your body because you’re a beautiful woman! And we have very similar shapes. I love my body, too. :)

  • Thursday, January 14, 2010 at 9:35 am

    That is a lot of weight to lose!!! You look amazing and should be so proud! My I ask how tall you are?

  • Thursday, January 14, 2010 at 9:56 am

    You really are beautiful, mama.

  • Thursday, January 14, 2010 at 11:05 am

    congrats! great role for baby girl :)

  • Monday, January 18, 2010 at 2:16 am

    Love this post! Good for you! We have a lot in common… I had a m/c and gained weight so when I got pregnant again I weighed about 174 and on delivery day weighed in at 238!! Just like you! I was ginormous! (I’m 5’7″). It has taken 11 months but I’ve lost 60 pounds with diet, crossfit training, pilates and running. So I have about 5 pounds of baby weight to go and 10 pounds of m/c weight and I’ll then be at my wedding day weight. Still would like to lose 20 on top of that for a goal weight of 140. Anyway, I just wanted to say that you look great!

  • Thursday, January 21, 2010 at 6:37 pm

    Wow-I thought that was me for a second! Seriously we look exactly the same! Awesome job on the weight loss!

  • Saturday, January 30, 2010 at 10:06 am

    wow im so happy to now someone else has a body like mine. My daughter will be one on the fifth. I was 263 at my last doctors appointment before i had her. Now I weigh 180. I am alomost 6 ft tall so thankfully it evens out a little. I was responding to you because our stomachs are quite the same. Ive been trying to get rid of it anyway possible. Ive lost quit a bit of weight and i am the smallest ive ever been in my life. thanks to diet and exerise. Anyway, I just hope that after 3 yrs my stomach looks like that. YOU look awsome

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