I got pregnant with my first baby when I was 15. I had the PERFECT body then and never realized it because I always had low self esteem. I was 5’2″ and weighed 115lbs. After I had him I weighed 135. I had a baby again when I was 17 and gave her up for adoption because I needed to finish high school and other reasons I’m not very proud of. After I had her I stayed at 145. At 19 I had another beautiful baby girl but my body had HAD IT, I am now stuck at 160. I wish I could wear a bikini or show my body without shame…… I NEVER had a stretch mark, roll, or extra skin before I got pregnant with my first. I feel like my body is just ugly, I’m trying to accept it but it’s very hard when I look at what I used to be, what I could be now if I never got pregnant. I love my children to death but I HATE the way my body looks more like 80 then 19.