In the summer of 2004, I was happier than I had ever been with my body. I’d gained just over 40 lbs. a few years earlier when I went on Depo Provera. Now, almost 2 years after coming off of it, the extra weight seemed to be melting away before my very eyes. I went from a size 11 to a size 8 in only a few months, and I was STILL shrinking! I could wear ANYTHING I wanted, and I loved to show off my flat tummy and nice legs. On November 7, 2004, I found out that I was pregnant. It was completely unplanned pregnancy, and I was single. About a week later, my size 8 jeans, that had been getting big on me, were suddenly too tight. I took my first pregnancy photo at about 10 weeks, and kept on growing! By the end of my pregnancy, I looked like I was having twins, and I had gained close to 90 lbs. At 220 lbs., I could not believe I’d gotten so big. I’d been eating very healthily all throughout my pregnancy, and while I wasn’t on an exercise routine, I was reasonably active, including working TWO jobs for 6 months of my pregnancy! A week after my beautiful son was born, I’d lost about 20 lbs. I didn’t lose another pound until he was almost 6 months old, and started eating solids. Then, I lost 10 lbs. in less than a week. The next time I lost weight was when I went back to work, when he was 11 months old. Again, I lost 10 lbs. in a week. I did some research, and found a link between Depo, pregnancy, and breastfeeding. That link is Progesterone. It seems that it completely slows down my body’s metabolism, so that nearly every calorie I eat gets turned into fat. My son weaned at 14.5 months, and just this week, my milk supply finally stopped. So now, nearly 2 years after my son was born, I am hoping that my body will start to shrink again. However, there is not much that can be done about the extra skin and stretch marks. Being single, it is hard to feel good about my body right now, and I am lacking in self-confidence. Thankfully, this site is making a HUGE difference to me, as are my bellydancing classes! I hope to one day see my postpartum body as a badge of honour for bringing my perfect little boy into the world. No matter what, he was DEFINITELY worth it!


