Author: Bonnie (SOAM)

PP Belly 5 Mo After twins (Anonymous)

Bonnie (SOAM) Belly, Cesarean, Cesarean (Vertical), First Pregnancy, Postpartum, Pregnant, Submissions, Twins 18 Comments

I am a 23 yr old new mum of twins. I carried my kiddos to 36 weeks and delivered 6.8. baby girl and 5.9 baby boy. I went from 158 lbs to 222 lbs on D day. I had a vertical cut C section and spent 2 days in the hospital. Accepting my new body is still something I am dealing with because I often compare myself to other women my age. I keep trying to remember that I don’t lead the average life of a 23 yr old. I am married and have been for 3 years and my pregnancy was very much planned. I thought I might have had a little bit better after body but I am still working. I am not going to lie, I envy stars like J-LO and Julia Roberts who seem to be able to display top notch bodies after twins. But I still think I did something kind of amazing …growing two humans and all.





Mommy Body (Anonymous)

Bonnie (SOAM) Belly, Postpartum, Second Pregnancy, Submissions 7 Comments

I look in the mirror everyday and go “huh…is this what I wanted 5 years ago?” No. Not the body that I have now, but I would not go back and change a thing. I have two beautiful boys and a husband who finds me sexy even though I don’t feel it. I loved being pregnant, I don’t love the aftermath of pregnancy. But the result-my children- are worth it. I spent almost 3 1/2 years breastfeeding my children…that will drain the heck out of you. My children are all weaned now and all I have left are empty shells that were once milk machines. I spend hours searching the net to see if anyone has it much worse than I do. I’m not going to lie, it makes me feel better about myself. I shouldn’t feel so bad about myself because a lot of people have bigger problems than I do. Everyone here is beautiful and brave for sharing their pictures and their stories!



Proud of this site (Anonymous)

Bonnie (SOAM) Cesarean, Child Loss, No Photos (Story Only), Submissions 1 Comment

I just found this site via a link and am amazed and in awe of all the mothers who have posted especially with pictures. I will have to find pictures to post since so many of the younger mothers have questions about how it looks. Well I’m now almost 43 years old now, had my first child via emergency c-section at 26 and my second at age 39 via c-section not by choice but hosptial and insurance “once a c-section always a c-section” policy. I’ve since had a laboring miscarriage at 41 years of age and another earlier this year. All pregnancies regarless of the duration or outcome change our bodies. We look in the mirror and lament the changes instead of looking into the adoring faces of our children – and we mothers are the center of their world.

Three Months After My Angel (Anonymous)

Bonnie (SOAM) Belly, First Pregnancy, Postpartum, Pregnant, Submissions 14 Comments

my life was one big nightmare i had a very bad dad who verbally and physically abused me and growing uo in a environment like that i felt really low. one day i snapped and tried taking the only way out by trying suicide b/c i had no reason to live. the day i found out i was pregnant i was in love. my purpose in this life was to make sure my lil angel had a great life and i am gonna do everything in my power to make sure of that. the day i had my son my heart melted i never loved someone so much so fast. i believe god sent him to me to show me that miracle’s happen and i do have a purpose. i am a mother and that to me is the most wonderful thing in this world. i don’t really like the way my body looks that much but i have alot of respect for it. my body made a beautiful angel i love my son zachariah and am looking forward to the adventures with him.










Fifty Nude Women – showing in San Diego

Bonnie (SOAM) Activism, Link, News 9 Comments

Fifty Nude Women
presented by Shape of a Mother and Java Mama

**Please e-mail shapeofamother@pacbell.net for details and to confirm your attendance as we will have limited room**

A documentary about 50 real nude women
of all ages and sizes and colors.
No airbrushing or Hollywood sparkle
mars their beautiful flaws and perfect imperfection.

Come see what real women look like.

Fifty Nude Women has been included in The New Yorker,
applauded by Playboy, and will be featured
in the Baltimore Women’s Film Festival.

www.fiftywomen.com
www.javamama.com

Thank You (Anonymous)

Bonnie (SOAM) Belly, Postpartum, Pregnant, Second Pregnancy, Submissions 13 Comments

First I want to say thank you to all the women who have posted on this site. It is not easy to take pictures of your body and show others. My body image is something I have struggled with for years. I have two children, 5 and 9 months old. I would like to have one more, but I am scared to see how my body would end up looking. I know compared to other women my body does not seem as bad, but it is something I really struggle with. After seeing this site it makes me feel like I am not alone. Thanks again.









Trying to love my new breasts (Anonymous)

Bonnie (SOAM) Belly, Breasts, First Pregnancy, Postpartum, Submissions 22 Comments

Giving birth was the best thing I’ve ever done. I love being a mom more than anything in the whole wide world. Even enough I can accept the little changes to my body. I’ve always been a curvier girl, but never had stretch marks before I was pregnant. Now I have what I call tiger scratches across my belly. Honestly, they don’t bother me. I was all belly when I got pregnant and I was suprised they weren’t worse. I could try all the lotions and potions out there that promise to get rid of them, but I smile at my little reminder that I once held my sweet baby in there. My breasts are now completely different sizes as well. Before I was pregnant I was a small C cup, perky as can be, and I loved them. At the end of my pregnancy and for the first couple months I was an E cup. My daughter has always preferred my left breast. I’ve tried since the beginning to get her to give the other breast a try, but she will only eat on it for a couple minutes (if she’ll even take it) then scream until I give her the ‘good’ breast back. She’s now a little over a year old and is still breastfeeding and still prefers the one breast over the other. My only hope is having another child and praying they prefer the right breast over the left and even me out :D