Ashamed and Unsatisfied (Kristen)

age 20, one pregnancy, one birth, little girl, 7 months postpartum

I carried a 100% healthy little girl a little over seven months ago. She was born 1 day after her due date, September 15, 2011. She weighed 8 pounds 12 ounces. I have never been the skinniest girl, nor will I ever be. I’m the average size 14 girl, until I got pregnant. I am 20 years old, a stay at home mom, a military wife, I have all that I could ever want, and feel ashamed that I could not like my body as much as I do. I have always tried to be active and eat healthy, but no matter how hard I have tried, it’s hard for me to lose the baby weight, the bigger thighs and the ‘love handles’. Every day, as I slip my clothes on, I wonder, “why can’t this just go away?” Then, as I walk down the hallway to grab my daughter from her crib, I remember why I look this way. I carried a beautiful little girl. This girl completes me in ways that I never thought could be. If I have anything to still learn, is to love my body. There are days where I could just cry and wear sweat pants all day, and there are those days that I think to myself, bring on the world. It is a battle, and I am proud to wear my battle scars all over my belly.

Pictures as followed
#1. 40 weeks pregnant
#2 40 weeks pregnant
#3 Zoe Jayne the day she was born
#4 Zoe at current age (7 months)
#5 7 months postpartum body

4 thoughts on “Ashamed and Unsatisfied (Kristen)

  • Friday, May 18, 2012 at 7:54 am

    Wow! We look a lot alike! Thanks for sharing your story! My post is down a few under “my body is sexy to me” or something like that if ya wants look at it!

  • Sunday, May 20, 2012 at 11:44 am

    Once your daughter starts walking it will all fall off. I am also a military wife who struggled with weight as a rule most of the time. It is amazing what happens when you literally no longer have time to eat or sit, or sleep. I weighted 185 before I got pregnant with daughter, 215 at her birth, and when she was 1 I weighted 140. I never worked out above and beyone keeping up with her. It will happpen.

  • Monday, May 21, 2012 at 7:06 am

    you look great and your daughter is GORGEOUS!

    blessed and tortured

  • Friday, June 22, 2012 at 12:09 pm

    Your daughter is so adorable!!! It will happen for you. Keep active and eat healthy and you will be surprised what happens. It took me two years to lose the baby weight but it eventually happens if you work hard. Good luck!

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