I have one beautiful daughter who is two years old and I hated my body afterward. I was single and I thought that no one would ever be attracted to me. I was disgusted by myself, and I couldn’t understand how anyone would want to have sex with me. When Brenna was 7 months old a friend of mine asked me on a date… I didn’t realize it was that kind of date until he started acting awkward and stammering with his words. It worked out and we are now married. He’s beautiful grumpy and we’re very happy together… We’re yin and yang.. and it’s just perfect. He’s 10 years older than me and has been wanting his own spawn for quite some time. After we got married we decided to have another baby, and we got pregnant very easily. A few days ago I thought I was 12 weeks pregnant. We went in for our first ultrasound and there was no heartbeat. They performed a D&C. And when I woke up the next morning the painful realization that I was not pregnant, doubled me over and I crumbled back into bed. I finally did get up and I looked in the mirror at the wreck my body is from 1 baby and how I’d wished it was still full. I feel so empty… like I felt after I had my daughter except I had her to show for it… This time I just feel empty. I know we’ll get pregnant and try again, but for now my body is just a reminder that I’m not pregnant anymore.