Well I am a 20 year old mother of two beautiful baby girls. I got pregnant at 17 with my first and had her 4 months after I turned 18. I had my second beautiful baby girl in May 2012. The father of both my children, recently decided he doesn’t want to be with me anymore. I am truly crushed inside after being with him for almost 4 years and two kids later he decides to just up and split. He never really was around that much anyways he always was with friends partying, or hitch hiking to other states and so I already in a sense was a single mother. He cheated on me as well quite a few times claimed it was cause he thought we were going to be over so why not I guess…..anyways I see it as a blessing in a sense and I know God has a plan for my life and my children but it still hurts so bad. Now I am focused on going to back to college to get a degree and be able to support my girls and give them a good life. I am also trying to focus on the areas of myself that need to be changed, attitudes etc so that when I meet the correct man for me I will be a loving wife. However my body depresses me SO MUCH! I have stretch marks everywhere, no joke, my belly, butt, behind my legs, inner and outter thighs, boobs and even my upper arms!!!! What the heck right? Anyways I get really down thinking about it sometimes like I will never find a man who will want to be with me because I have two kids already and my body just sucks not to mention the lose skin on my tummy. I get really sad about it there are good days and bad days, I just want to feel good about myself. I eat correctly for the most part with occasional slip ups. I breast fed my 1st daughter and am still breast feeding my second and I have worked out hard since 2 months pp and lost a lot of weight and toned up quite a bit too, but it seems like stretch marks just keep popping up everywhere ugh…. and they are deep too. Anyways enough whining lol I also realize that God has blessed me with not one but two healthy, gorgeous girls and that we have a roof over our heads and food to eat, clothes to wear and even stuff to have fun with, toys, books, tv, computer etc….where as many other people do not have these luxuries or are not able to conceive so I thank him every day and hopefully one day I can make peace with my body, and hopefully any other mother feeling the same way as myself will too. God bless.
Number of Pregnancies:3 Births:2
Age of Children: DD1 is 26 months old, DD2 is 6 months old
Photos: These are all photos of me 6 months pp I couldn’t get any full body views but there is the right side, left side and front side of my tummy.