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Transmogrification (Valentine)

Here I am 6 weeks post-partum. I’ve spent my entire life in one extreme or another…first I loved myself to the point of narcissism. Then I couldn’t stand to look at myself, to the point where the extent of my self-loathing would bring me to tears. Now? I still find myself unattractive, but I know that SHE was worth every moment of discomfort, every stretch mark (who gets stretch marks on their legs, anyhow???), the ruined tattoo, the drooping breasts and every ounce of flab. She has been there in my subconscious for my entire life and now she is my reality. I know now that I was meant to be a mother. Also, that weird dark scar underneath my belly button? It stands as a reminder that while piercing yourself with a safety pin SEEMS like a good idea in jr high, the reality is, well…..LOOK at it!

~Your Age: 21
~Number of pregnancies and births: 3 pregnancies–3 abortions, 1 birth
~The age of your children, or how far postpartum you are: 6 weeks post partum

in Abortion/Life after Abortion, Belly, Cesarean, Piercing, Postpartum, Submissions, Tattoo, Third Pregnancy

12 comments… add one

  • Jess Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 9:16 am

    Hey there. Wow, the stretchies on ur legs are exactly like mine! Sometimes I feel like an alien the way I look – Stretch marks from breast to toe but it’s comforting to know that there’s someone else out there with stretchies on their legs!
    I’m not the only one..

    Thanks for sharing :)

  • Stacie Hulm Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 10:20 am

    I have stretchmarks in all the same places! You’re not alone!

  • Amy Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 12:23 pm

    I love your comment “She has been there in my subconscious for my entire life and now she is my reality.” What a beautiful sentiment!

  • paula Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 2:31 pm

    oh you are so very pretty! your tums looks good; those marks will fade and be a distant memory or become part of who you are in time. you look thin too. thin and pretty! who cares about marks!

  • Beth Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 3:38 pm

    LOL I thought the same thing till I found this website. I too have them on the backs of my legs. And eveywhere else.

  • Summer Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 3:40 pm

    I have a friend who had stretch marks EVERYWHERE. On her legs (upper and lower), back, butt even her arms. I was embarrassed for her when she wore shorts and tank tops.. Now.. you can’t see them unless you’re REALLY looking for them. And they were dark! Yours are reddish, hers were brown. So just so you know they could always go away!

  • Greta Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 4:57 pm

    Head to toe stretch marks here too. I’m not going to lie, they still bug me. But they’ll fade a lot until no one really notices them but you.

  • Kali Tuesday, July 14, 2009, 7:14 pm

    I got stretchmarks just like that on my legs when I was growing up. I was about 12 or 13 and was horrified. They have long since faded to the point where I don’t think twice about shorts or skirts…yours will too.

  • TracyKM Wednesday, July 15, 2009, 10:51 am

    I’ve had stretch marks on my legs since a teen. Behind the knees. In pregnancy, getting them on the legs is usually due to water retention.
    I don’t understand how you’ve had 3 pregnancies and 3 abortions, AND one birth. Did one of the abortions fail?

  • Crystal Wednesday, July 15, 2009, 2:16 pm

    I have stretches marks on my legs too I remember thinking who the heck gets them on their calves and feeling like a freak. It’s nice to know I’m not alone with them.

  • Bridget Thursday, July 16, 2009, 8:48 am

    I have stretch marks everywhere too. I think they’re a lot worse than they really are. Luckily, they do fade a lot and are not nearly as visible. Thank you for sharing.

  • susy Wednesday, July 29, 2009, 1:31 pm

    I pierced my belly button in high school too and my pregnancy scarred it up pretty bad, even though I had it done professionally.
    You look great!

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