I had a beautiful baby girl about 8 weeks ago. It seems like almost as I had her I begin to live in so much fear and struggling with anxiety. My moods were very extreme from highs to lows. It seemed like anything overwelmed me, to the point were I could not even make simple decisions, like what to have to eat. I remember at first being affraid to be left alone with the baby, in fear that I was not adaquate enough to take care of her. It seems like every other day I was breaking down and crying in pure fear and anxiety. The part that made me really feel crazy was some of the time I did not even know what I was afraid of. One week I put off going to Wal-mart for 3 days because I was scared to go alone. But yet there would be other times when I was fine to go somewhere alone. I thank God for my very supportive partner and mother. With out him and my mom I don’t know how bad off it would of gotten. I have been to a couple counsling sessions and I just started Zoloft last week. My counseler says she feels that I may have more of the anxiety than depression. My Ob/gyn prescribed Zoloft but says I need to get in with a psychiatrist. the thing is the soonest I could get with one was three weeks so we figured that the zoloft would help me till then. The thing is that the Zoloft kind of makes me feel numb of all emotion like even joy. It also has caused me to have lock jaw for a week straight now and I am not sure if it is just because I am watching for it now but it seems like my baby is sleeping more. I am breastfeeding and am concerned that it could be affecting her. Most of the research I have done has claimed that Zoloft is safe for nursing moms. My little angel and I have been through our ups and downs with breast feeding, she has a sensitive tummy and I have given up broccoli, onions, garlic and all dairy because it affects her too much. I want to keep breast feeding that is why I don’t mind giving up all the foods and dairy. But I do feel I need some sort of medication and just don’t know what to do. I guess I need some advice on my whole situation and especially the part of taking meds and nursing.