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I don’t feel beautiful anymore!… (Anonymous)

May 20, 2009

First off I’d like to say how amazing this site is. After browsing through everyone’s story and pictures, I’ve realized what real women look like, and that im not the only one going through this stage of not feeling beautiful.

I have a wonderful supporting boyfriend that I have been with for over 2 years. Each and every day he tells me how attractive I am, how beautiful ive always been and that im even more beautiful now. But some how I cant bring myself to believe him.I think if I dont feel this way about myself than why would he. Hes my boyfriend and I know he wouldnt want to hurt my feelings, thats why I think he gives me all these complements.

When my boyfriend and I started dating I was 5″7 115lbs, and I absolutely loved my body. Around that same time I was going through alot of family troubles and I gained 15 lbs throughout the year I was with him..I told myself I can deal with being 5″7 and 130lbs.. I was still very confidant and loved the way I looked.

Then 9 months ago I found out that I was 15 weeks pregnant, at only 18 years old..I will be 19 on May 4th,even being a young adult I had people look down on me because I am so young and having a baby.. I had no idea that I was pregnant, I didnt gain weight, I didnt have any symptons that I could be pregnant. Then all of a sudden my periods started going all different, so I went to get checked out. When I found out I was pregnant , I was very scared and happy all at the same time. I never really thought about how my body was going to change because I had more important things to worry about.

I am now 40 Weeks + 2, my due date was on April 22nd,2009. So really I can have this baby any day now. The pregnancy has been great, ive had no problems. I actually liked being pregnant, up until 8 months. I had no stretch marks , and i didnt gain that much weight.I felt great, I had tons of energy. Because I didnt have any stretch marks tell I was 8months pregnant I didnt think id get them at all..So I didnt always put cream and oil on, and that was a huge mistake, my stretch marks are now disgusting. I now weigh close to 190lbs.

I know that my stomach,butt,thighs and overall my whole body will never look the same again. I will try my hardest to look the best I can after this pregnancy, because I know I will never feel good about myself again if my body looks the way it does now.

I have attached a few pictures of before I was 8 months pregnant, 8months pregnant and now. I will update what I look like after I give birth. Whenever this baby decides to come lol..

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9 Responses to “I don’t feel beautiful anymore!… (Anonymous)”

  1. susy Says:
    May 20th, 2009 at 1:30 pm

    you look AMAZING! you’re all belly. it doesnt look like u gained a pound anywhere else!
    the stretch marks will fade and you will lose the weight. Even if you dont lose it all, i can already tell you’ll look great. everything will be ok! defo looking forward to update pics.

  2. kelly Says:
    May 20th, 2009 at 10:05 pm

    aw i got strecth marks at 38 weeks! dam i was sooo close..trilastin cream is a miracle cure for fading sretch marks, expensive but u will see results within a month if that..all the best and u will bounce straight back

  3. Ashley Says:
    May 20th, 2009 at 11:04 pm

    WOW! Are you sure you aren’t having twins?! It looks like ALL the weight is in you belly. Your legs still look tiny!

    Don’t feel guilty about not continuing with the creams, if you’re going to get stretchmarks you’re going to get them no matter how many times a day you put it on! I used it and still got them! I’ve even met women who gained more in their pregnancies, didn’t use any cream and didn’t get any stretchmarks! It’s just genetics :(

  4. Christie Says:
    May 21st, 2009 at 3:30 am

    You look GORGEOUS! Stretch marks are nothing to worry about. They fade before you know it. And don’t beat yourself up about putting on lotions and potions there is plenty of research to suggest they do very little to help. By the way we were the same starting weight and it looks like you’ll be the same finishing weight I was. Hope your bub is as much of a treasure as mine is xoxo

  5. Audrey Says:
    May 22nd, 2009 at 10:12 am

    I think your stretch marks are so beautiful, they look like fire. I have stretch marks from two babies but they’re all short and fat, not elegant and flamey like yours. They fade to a sweet sparkly silver color and i still miss the bright red reminders that my body was adapting so perfectly to my huge babies. Maybe its impossible, but try to appreciate them, you won’t have them for long.

  6. Mama Says:
    May 23rd, 2009 at 11:10 pm

    At the end of just about EVERY woman’s pregnancy, we all feel like this. That we hate feeling so big. We hate the stretch marks. I must tell you now that you will love your body in a few months. Not only because it’ll be smaller, but because it has created such a BEAUTIFUL baby, it has breastfed your child, it has done what no man ever can and what some women may never be able to do.

  7. Lani Says:
    May 28th, 2009 at 12:42 am

    Don’t beat yourself up over those creams. Just today I asked my beau if he thought I could have prevented my stretch marks buy using more cream. (He said no.) Eh.

    Some things really are just out of our hands. Stretch marks happen the the majority of us to varying degrees. (There are only a few who get off untouched. Lucky ducks.)

    Relax and enjoy your baby for a bit. You make a beautiful pregnant lady! I’m sure you’re going to be a beautiful mommy too!

  8. Pamela Says:
    May 28th, 2009 at 4:44 pm

    I was 110 and 5’5 before pregnancy and shot up to 170 while pregnant, 2 years post partum I am 118 and still working on it. I know how disheartening in can be, I I can honestly say I loved my body before pregnancy and now 2 years later I am still not where I want to be. Like you, I was small and just assumed I would bounce back after the baby. During my pregnancy my breast got huge, from a 34 A to almost a 38 DD and the stretch marks were purple and so ugly but they faded eventually. Just like you I didn’t have a single stretch mark on my stomach until 8 month, and just like you I wasn’t so rigorous with the cream (not that it would have made a huge diff, its genes). If your body is anything like mine, you will get a bit of wrinkles on your stomach but most will go away, who cares if you might never have a 6 pack..you have a beautiful baby to show for it! Congrats!!

  9. ali Says:
    June 1st, 2009 at 5:56 pm

    i was all belly too – my stretchmarks were a lot like yours, but have faded and are now just a light pink shade. i have extra skin on my belly but only have 12 lbs to get back down to my pre-preggers weight.

    just eat right and get some moderate exercise everyday. your body will never be the same, but neither will your life – it will have all changed for the better :)

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