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Hoping for a Miracle (Michelle)

October 29, 2010

Age: 25
Pregnancies: 5 (3 miscarriages, 1 a set of twins) Births: 1
Age of children: almost three, 6 weeks pregnant

Growing up I was never sure if I wanted children. I was not sure if I had the patience. I met my husband my freshman year of college. We dated for about 7 months and we found out we were pregnant. We were shocked. My first appointment I was told I was only about 4 weeks along – all we saw was a yolk sac. At my next appointment (4 weeks later) There was a fetal pole, it was measuring 6 weeks, but I was told not to be concerned by the discrepancy. Fast forward three weeks and I started cramping and spotting. A trip to the emergency room later I was told I was miscarrying. They gave me pain medicine, sent me home, and scheduled a D&C. The next day I was back in the emergency room. They hospitalized me while I passed “the embryonic tissues.” Two months later me and my husband married. Three months flew by and we decided to start trying to get pregnant. My first appointment was fine, they tested by hcg levels over 4 days and they were increasing as they should… 2 weeks later, another miscarriage. We decided that we were going to wait to try to get pregnant again. One night, one thing led to another and we did not use any protection. Thank god. Because 9 months later our beautiful baby girl was born. I had an interesting pregnancy. I have type 1 diabetes (juvenile onset, insulin dependent), had extra amniotic fluid through much of my pregnancy (which I would like to think contributed to the 70 lbs I gained – lol), and went into premature labor twice (due to the abnormally small size of my uterus and the stress from the extra amniotic fluid). I ended up having a “non-emergency emergency c-section” (yes you are reading that right – that is how the doctor referred to it) after our daughters heart rate dropped multiples time during my induction. Our daughter was in the special care nursery for 4 hours before they would let me see her (her oxygen levels were low due to a hold in her heart). Four days later (after my daughter was treated for jaundice) we were released from the hospital. The hole in her heart healed on its own and she is thriving. She is now a rowdy 3 year old red head (she has the temper to match). Recently me and my husband decided we should try for another baby. Five months ago We found out I was pregnant. We were ecstatic. Two weeks later, I miscarried – a set of twins. Heartbreak. Two weeks ago, I found out I am pregnant. Evidently I don’t have a problem getting pregnant – just staying pregnant. I am now 6.5 weeks pregnant. I had an ultrasound two days ago and we saw a heartbeat. I am scared as hell, but already in love with this tiny baby inside of me. Here’s hoping for another miracle!

picture 1: me 32 weeks pregnant with my daughter
picture 2: our beautiful baby girl
picture 3-5: me today, almost 3 years postpartum and 6.5 weeks pregnant.

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8 Responses to “Hoping for a Miracle (Michelle)”

  1. Mary V Says:
    October 29th, 2010 at 8:13 am

    Yay for Red Babies! And congratulations mommy, fingers crossed that you have a wonderful healthy pregnancy!

  2. Apryl Says:
    October 29th, 2010 at 4:56 pm

    I have miscarried myself and know how heartbreaking it can be. I wish you the best of luck with this pregnancy.

    Your daughter is beautiful. And so is her mama.

  3. Sarah P. Says:
    October 29th, 2010 at 5:13 pm

    Oh your baby is so adorable and I love your photos you posted. You are such a beautiful woman! I hope you get your miracle! :)

  4. Nina Says:
    October 29th, 2010 at 5:21 pm

    I second that! I have 2 red haired babies too, my oldest is 2 years definitely has the temper too! My little boy is 3 1/2 months and is much calmer so far so fingers crossed :) Good luck with your pregnancy I hope it all goes well for you!!

  5. Colleen Says:
    October 29th, 2010 at 5:26 pm

    Congratulations on your beautiful little girl :) My husband’s mother had type 1 diabetes as well, and she suffered several miscarriages (I don’t know exactly how many) and a stillborn little girl (at 34 weeks) before she had him. He was born at 34 weeks by c-section, because the doctors figured if he had made it that far, he was probably better off on the outside, given what happened with his sister. Every other woman in her family has had excess fluid as well, but I’m not sure if she did. Unfortunately she passed away shortly before my husband’s second birthday, so I never got to meet her. If we ever have another daughter she will be named after her daddy’s mother :)

    You have carried one baby to term, I am confident that you can have another! Your daughter is beautiful and I am sure your second miracle will be too :)

  6. TanyaRose Says:
    October 30th, 2010 at 12:52 am

    Just beautiful, the loss and the want make us appreciate our bodies so much more. This is what real beauty looks like.

  7. michelle Says:
    October 31st, 2010 at 7:55 pm

    Thank you everyone for the encouragement. I had another ultrasound on wednesday at 9 weeks and 2 days. Baby is growing – right on target and we were able to see not only the heartbeat again, but a “dancing” baby. My earlier miscarriages were all at or before 6 weeks and we had never seen a heartbeat. My wonderful doctor thinks I am past my “danger zone”… Things are looking good for my second miracle.

    Michelle

  8. Shannon Says:
    December 8th, 2010 at 10:12 pm

    I am a type 1 diabetic (11 at onset, 31 now, 29 when first and only baby was born). I’m so thankful that another juvenile diabetic mommy is getting to experience the miracle of carrying and birthing her child. I am praying for your strength, peace of mind and faith to put your hope in God no matter what challenges try to steal your joy and peace at this exciting time. I think that baby’s dancing for joy, for you, in appreciation of a little extra sugar :) God, would You AWESOMELY bless Michelle all over and throughout? Just b/c You can? Love, love, love to you Michelle and that dancing nugget!

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