I am a mother of 4 beautiful children. 2 boys who were born vaginally, and 2 girls who were born via Csection. My first born gave me hundreds of stretch marks, from my stomach, inner thighs, breasts and outer thighs. I didn’t get many more from the other children. My attitude towards my body changes daily. Somedays I think I look great for having 4 children. I have kept my youthful appearance since I am told many times a day I do not look 32 yrs old. But there are some days when I am getting dressed or walking out of the shower when I feel disgusted with myself. When I got pregnant with my first son I weighed about 135 lbs, at 5’5″, I gained 45 lbs with him. I kept my weight around 170 after him and after my second son. Then I lost all my weight, I was back down to 135 and shortly after got pregnant with my daughter. I had many issues through that pregnancy and didn’t gain much weight, only 22 lbs. and lost it immediately. My last daughter I weighed about 150 when I conceived her and now 18 months later I weigh 163. Right now I’m in the depressed mind about my body. I feel ashamed of it, I want to hid it, I point out the gross areas daily, each time I walk by a mirror. When my husband doesn’t want to have sex I convince myself it’s because he’s disgusted with my body. It’s a roller coaster of emotions when I think of my body, my children. In the end they are all worth it all. They are my blessing from above, and made from love. I appreciate this site and I am glad I found it, to feel there are others that feel the same way as I do helps.