My pregnancy was the first time in my entire life that I was comfortable with my body. We battled infertility and won; through IVF we were blessed in seeing our dreams become a reality. Before I began infertility treatments, I was a slim 130 lbs on a 5’11” frame. Due to hormone therapy I gained 10 lbs and my stomach began to resemble a balloon. It wasn’t fun looking pregnant while I was trying so hard to get pregnant. But finally our miracle happened and there WAS a child inside of me. Although my pregnancy wasn’t easy – I relished every moment of it. I LOVED the way my body changed and grew. I never stopped rubbing my belly, in complete awe of what was taking place. I went into pre-term labor at 27wks and was placed on bed rest for the next two months. At 35 wks, our precious 7lb.3oz. son was born. I was very fortunate to only have one stretch mark on my breast. However, my body is MUCH different in other respects. I have veins that wind themselves all around my hips that weren’t visible before my pregnancy. My breasts show much evidence of the seven wonderful months I was fortunate enough to breastfeed. My waist, which was very small pre-pregnancy – isn’t much of a “waist” anymore. There is an incredible difference in my stomach now, and I struggle with acceptance. I accumulate so much guilt over this issue. I dreamed and prayed and hoped for my child. Yet, I often look at my post-partum body with reproach. Four years later, I am learning to love my body for what it is and what it has accomplished. When I look down at the rolls on my stomach, I try hard to remind myself of the miracle that happened inside of it. I would like to thank you for what you have done with this site. You have given a voice to all of us who question our ability to love our post-partum bodies. I love my precious son with all my heart. And each day I learn to love my body for giving life to him. I have included pictures of myself 7mths pregnant, 2 yrs & 4 yrs post-partum.