My body after three babies (Anonymous)

I got pregnant with my first baby when I was 16. I was 5’4″ and 125lbs. With that pregnancy I gained nearly 60lbs. and had the stretch marks to prove it. My entire belly was covered as well as my hips, breasts, thighs, and even the inside of my arms. After I gave birth to him, my stomach looked like a deflated balloon and I was depressed because I had gained so much weight. I got pregnant with my second about three years later, which sadly ended in a miscarriage. My third pregnancy was conceived just a few weeks after the miscarriage and I had not lost any weight since having my first. With that pregnancy I added another 30lbs. onto my already overweight frame. Plus, with that pregnancy, she stretched out my belly so much that after I had her I was left with an “apron” of skin hanging on my abdomen. My fourth pregnancy was a rough one, complete with bleeding in the first trimester and preterm contractions and severe anxiety in the last trimester. Luckily with that pregnancy I only gained 14lbs., so after I gave birth, I was back to my pre-pregnancy weight. We knew this was our last baby so now I’m left to deal with the aftermath. At first I was very embarrassed at my new figure, I was mortified at my hanging skin and stretch marks. I couldn’t stand to look at myself in the mirror or let my husband see me naked. I still fight the low self esteem, but this website has opened my eyes. I realize the life I have brought into this world and I look at my kids and realize that it was all worth it. The first picture is me at 38 weeks pregnant with my third baby (fourth pregnancy). The other two are me at nearly 2 years postpartum. I’ve also included my breasts in the pictures. Before I had kids I was small at 34A. During my first pregnancy I quickly grew to a 38D which left many stretchmarks and saggy boobs. I’m still currently breastfeeding and my breasts are at about a 36-38C.