Mommylicious (Anonymous)

I was living in Alaska when I became pregnant. I was 21. Partying peak age. Out every weekend. Then BAM. Preggers. My finace and I had just broken up a few weeks earlier and he had moved out. I was trying to make it on my own as a low-grade manager in a clothing store. For those of you who don’t know, Alaska is an expensive state to live in. Anyway, I had what I like to call an irresponsible moment. I had met another guy and was on the rebound. I’ve never done that before. Because of this, I am unsure of who the biological father of my daughter is. I’m not the only one this has happened to, and I know this. I also don’t feel like any less of a person because of it. I moved back to my home state when I was about four months pregnant. I couldn’t afford to pay my rent anymore, let alone raise a baby. During my seventh month, a boy whom I had gone to high school with and I started talking. He claimed he had liked me since junior year. He wanted to take me out to a movie and dinner, just as friends, because he knew all of my friends lived in cities further away because of college. I agreed. We had no idea we’d fall in love. He’s been there for me since that day. He would rub and talk to my belly constantly. He stayed with me the entire time I was in labor. To me, he IS my daughter’s “daddy”. He’s been there since the day she was born, and she loves him to death. My ex fiance and I are still friends. We plan on doing a DNA test this spring when he comes home to visit. As for the other guy, he could care less about me or my daughter. But life goes on, and she’s very loved. It’s been 5 months on the 29th of February since she was born. She is my life. My angel. Random facts about my pregnancy/post-pregnancy: * I gained 60lbs. Topping out at 220lbs the day I was induced (which was my due date!) * I was officially preeclampsic the day I was due. * I have stretch marks from the back of my knees to the back of my arms all from being pregnant. * I was being treated for depression/anxiety before and during my pregnancy. During my pregnancy, my moods weren’t too bad at all. I actually felt “normal”. (I was still taking the medication during my pregnancy). After having my daughter, the moods became worse and I’ve had to have the dosage of my medicine increased. I felt like I was the ONLY one who had been through it. Now I know I wasn’t… * I was more confident about my body when I was pregnant that I EVER have been in my life.

16 thoughts on “Mommylicious (Anonymous)

  • Monday, March 10, 2008 at 11:19 am

    you look absolutly amazing, you tummy looks just like mine post preg and I love mine!
    your daughter is beautiful just like her mamma! you must be so proud!

  • Monday, March 10, 2008 at 11:36 am

    I lost a baby almost eight years ago that I wasn’t 100% sure who the father was. It happens. It didn’t make it any less heartbreaking. My daughter is being raised my me and her stepdad because her father has nothing to do with her. The man in the pictures with your adorable daughter is obviously her daddy and she is a lucky girl!

  • Monday, March 10, 2008 at 12:22 pm

    You are beautiful and so is your daughter. You are lucky to have such a special daddy for your little one.

  • Monday, March 10, 2008 at 12:33 pm

    You look beautiful and your daughter is just gorgeous. Her real daddy there looks like he really loves his daughter! ;)

  • Monday, March 10, 2008 at 12:51 pm

    i think you look beautiful. congrats on finding love and support!

  • Monday, March 10, 2008 at 2:36 pm

    Hey, you are beautiful. You are thin too. Your little girl is absolutely adorable.

  • Monday, March 10, 2008 at 2:43 pm

    I was in the same position,except I was 18 when I got pregnant (19 when I delivered.) I was sure who the father was, but I had been with 3 guys in the span of 3 months, so DSHS tested them all for paternity. I ran into a junior high (male) friend when my son was 4 months old and we moved in together by the time my son was a year old. He has always been my son’s “daddy.” Fast forward 9 years and we’re still together, and have since had two more sons. :)

  • Monday, March 10, 2008 at 3:57 pm

    You have got to be one of the most mature 21-22 year olds I have ever come across! What an amazing adventure that has unfolded and your daughter is absolutely gorgeous. She looks so happy and so, so loved! Thank you for sharing, I think so many people are afraid of telling the truth and huge kudos to you for being so young and understanding so much of life is what you make it. What an incredibly lucky little girl to have such a great mommy. Honey, take the medication whatever the dosage is, to be able to be present in every moment of her life. People do not have the right to judge any part of your life, whether with regard to how your daughter came to be or that you’re taking care of your mental well being. Don’t ever let anyone make you feel anything less than the beautiful, integral woman and mommy that you are! I hope that all of your lives continue to be rich in love, health and Blessings!

  • Monday, March 10, 2008 at 5:52 pm

    Your daughter is precious, and you look beautiful!

    Whichever guy is her biological father — make sure he pays child support. She’s entitled to that.

  • Monday, March 10, 2008 at 10:51 pm

    I am so glad you decided to post your story.
    This site is amazing, and it truly does help.
    Since most pregnant bodies you see are celebrity’s wearing bikinis after having a kid.
    You are beautiful.
    And I am happy everything is working out for you.

  • Tuesday, March 11, 2008 at 6:19 am

    You look adorable and your little girl is precious!! Good Luck=)

  • Thursday, March 13, 2008 at 9:35 am

    You look great and your stars tattoos are awesome! You’re beautiful.

    Your daughter was born on Sept. 29, 2007? Same with mine. She even has the same dress/pinafore!

    Your daughter is SO adorable and looks very at home with “daddy” in that photo.

    Honestly, dear, you must be one of the most mature out of the 21/22 year old mothers I’ve heard of. Well done!

  • Friday, March 21, 2008 at 12:44 pm

    I’ve been reading several profiles on this site this evening – but for some reason when I got to the picture of you holding your little girl on your chest, I started to tear up for the first time tonight.

    I am at 37 weeks right now. I too am having a little girl – first child at 33.

    I think that the reason I teared up might be because you are so beautiful and you look so confident and serene in your situation. You have an inner light.

    Your little girl is so lovely too. Sweetness personified.

    God Bless you and yours!

  • Wednesday, April 9, 2008 at 9:07 pm

    Your baby is beautiful, gotta be the most beautiful baby i’ve ever seen.

  • Thursday, April 10, 2008 at 11:32 am

    Your daughter is absolutely gorgeous, like you. Your tattoos are beautiful too!!

  • Monday, April 14, 2008 at 2:39 pm

    Reading your post made me cry i dont know you but i am so proud of you for going threw all that shit. I have a friend thats kind of in the same situation your in an she just had her baby boy yesterday so im worryed shes gona get depressed or something but i know shes strong an shell get threw it..but ya you look great an your baby girl is addorable thats why i wish i had one!

    Reading your post made me cry i dont know you but i am so proud of you for going threw all that shit. I have a friend thats kind of in the same situation your in an she just had her baby boy yesterday so im worryed shes gona get depressed or something but i know shes strong an shell get threw it..but ya you look great an your baby girl is addorable thats why i wish i had one!


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