Learning to Love it Again (Anonymous)

I used to love me body, I loved it pre-pregnancy and throughout the entire nine months I was pregnant I felt beautiful. I have never felt more sexy than I did while I was pregnant. (Blame it on the hormones, I guess) Because I was only in my mid-twenties when I delivered (via c-section) I thought I would get my pre-baby body back fairly quickly. I tried everything I possibly could in terms of diet and exercise, but my post-baby body remains a size 12 and 30 pounds heavier even though my daughter is a year and a half old now. (I used to be a size 6. For me going into double digit clothing sizes postpartum was the absolute hardest thing. I cried many times over those numbers!)

My right breast is almost a full cup size larger than the left now and they are so large and saggy that I think my whole extra 30 pounds might just be in my chest! (To me this is not a good thing) They also have stretch marks and my nipples are HUGE now. Before I got pregnant my breasts and stomach were my favorite features about my body, now they are the ones I am most self-conscious about.

I am hoping that by posting this I will be able to see my body the way that my husband sees it, as the beautiful vessel that carried our daughter and is still as sexy as it ever was, stretch marks, extra skin in the middle, c-section scar, un-even breasts and all.

Age: 26
Pregnancies and Births: 1
16 months post-partum

11 thoughts on “Learning to Love it Again (Anonymous)

  • Wednesday, September 15, 2010 at 8:21 am

    Your husband is right- your body is beautiful!!

  • Wednesday, September 15, 2010 at 10:53 am

    From one obscenely large cup size mama to another–you have awesome breasts!

    Are you still nursing? If not, have you tried taking birth control? When I was a freshman in college my breasts got to the point where they were at LEAST a cup size different, and I was VERY self-conscious about it. My doctor put me on birth control, and they evened out a lot. They’re still not exactly the same size, and one hangs lower than the other (my last post was “One Year After a Cesarean–Update (Colleen)”), but they’re much better than they used to be.

    I also went from a size 6 to double digits (10). The first time I went pants shopping after my daughter was born I optimistically started out taking a 6 and an 8 into the dressing room, but had to send my sister out for 10s. It really bummed me out. But I’ve discovered that size is really just a number. When I compare pictures of myself now to pre-baby (when clothed) I can’t see much of a difference.

    Just remember that nobody, even women who have never had children, have perfectly symmetrical breasts (unless they’re fake!). You look great, and you’re a lucky woman to have a husband who loves to tell you that!

  • Wednesday, September 15, 2010 at 12:56 pm

    You are beautiful and I only hope you have someone that tells you that every day. Smile and be proud of the body that motherhood has given you. YOU ARE SEXXY!!! Feel sexxy.

  • Wednesday, September 15, 2010 at 6:22 pm

    Beautiful! Really, you look fantastic. And your breasts are amazing!

  • Thursday, September 16, 2010 at 10:49 am

    I think you look sexy in all your pics, especially the last one, it shows just how awesome your shape is. Your boobs are big but they are also beautiful and full :) Your skin looks flawless!! I know it’s easier said than done, but I really hope you see yourself as sexy soon.

  • Thursday, September 16, 2010 at 2:33 pm

    My breasts are different sizes too and I don’t think it will ever change on it’s own. I just use a pad in the side that is smaller and not in the one that is larger to balance them under clothes. It doesn’t bother me nude.

  • Saturday, September 18, 2010 at 1:24 pm

    Mama, you have such a beautiful tummy! I love your bellybutton!!! It’s so cute! And I don’t see any stretch marks. ;)

  • Monday, September 20, 2010 at 3:26 pm

    You look great!You don’t have any sagging skin, either.
    I am 4 years pp and had forgotten how asymmetrical I had become after two children in two years (only one breast ever seemed to “work” with breast feeding). It has really improved with time, and now they are more even than before pregnancy. That may happen to you, too.
    Anyway, they don’t really look that different (no more than is normal for a lot of women)and well, are many people going to see them apart from your husband (and all of us? :))?

  • Wednesday, September 22, 2010 at 4:07 pm

    I am 7 months pp and I was in the dressing room for an hour and then walking out with nothing. I wear sweat pants cause they feel good. You look good! My husband tells me the same thing. Its great to have support like that.

  • Thursday, October 14, 2010 at 4:37 pm

    You are beautiful. That is so sweet of your husband to say that and I hope you can believe him soon!

  • Thursday, December 23, 2010 at 10:30 am

    You look beautiful. I can’t think of anything else to say, and it’s true.

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