I want to look better. (Sue)

~Age: 22
~Number of pregnancies and births: 1
~The age of your children: 16 months

First of all I want to apologize for mistakes, English is not my language, I’m from Poland.

I’m just 22 and I’m not happy about new look of my body… I’m not hating it only because of my boyfriend who seems to like it despite stretch marks and ugly, flat boobs. I was kind of sexy before pregnancy, I had 127 pounds of weight (I am tall, 176 cm) and I miss it very much. At 8th month of pregnancy I looked like a whale (171 pounds) but I was happy and excited. I couldn’t stand waiting for my son, and I was scared that something can go wrong. My friend and her baby had died that year during c-section. I was shocked. We were preparing together for maternity, we had same problems with our boyfriends, we had plans. After their death everything had changed. I was left alone, nobody could understand me and my fears. But luckily my pregnancy went well (I had only some problems with liver) and in October 2008 I gave birth to my beautiful son.

Usually my body is not a problem for me. I’m starting to think about what it looks, when I see slim, famous women 6 weeks postpartum, when I’m comparing shape of my body with my friends who doesn’t have children and when I’m trying to buy some new cloths in which I look nice. I know that my problem with accepting my new look is not serious – in the end my son is happy and healthy and I’m alive. But still I’m not feeling good with myself and I want to fight for better look. I’m going to loose some pounds and change my lifestyle. I know that it’s kind of sad that my self-esteem depends on my look but I think I can’t change it. What I can change is shape of my body, and I’ll try to do it.

Here are photos of me before and during pregnancy and 16 months postpartum.

6 thoughts on “I want to look better. (Sue)

  • Tuesday, March 23, 2010 at 10:35 am

    i think you look wonderful!!! i wish i looked like that

  • Tuesday, March 23, 2010 at 12:09 pm

    Change the shape of your body? Girl, you have a gorgeous hourglass shape!

  • Tuesday, March 23, 2010 at 12:51 pm

    You look beautiful! I dont see any stretch marks and you have such a tiny waist and nice hips! Very feminine. I LOVE your pregnant shot, it’s so graceful. :) Much love!

  • Wednesday, April 7, 2010 at 11:17 am

    Wow, you are beautiful!! What lovely curves. And you certainly were no “whale” during your pregnancy… that is one of the most gorgeous pregnant bodies I’ve ever seen.

    P.S. Your English is a lot better than many people who have it as a first language. ;) I wouldn’t worry about it if I were you.

  • Thursday, April 29, 2010 at 10:33 pm

    I think you are beautiful. I understand that your breasts are different than before, but they are still attractive boobs!
    Have a look at this site, it has photos of all different boobs and will help you learn to love you own ones:


  • Tuesday, March 8, 2011 at 10:40 pm

    You look beautiful! My boons r smaller but from the waist down we look the same. Glad you are healthy and happy.. sorry about your friend and her baby. Congrats on your family though..

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