I never thought a size 12 could be sexy before… (Anonymous)

I have a 9 month old and weighed 150 before pregnancy(size 8) and am average height (26 y.o.). I was very unhappy at the time with my size, I’ve felt too fat my entire life because there are always those girls that are skinnier and more perfect. I don’t think I could ever be completely happy with my body unless it looked exactly like a Victoria’s Secret model. I guess this is what society has done to me.
Anyway, I gained 31 pounds during pregnancy which I was pretty happy about because I didn’t want to gain any more than I could ‘easily’ lose after baby was born.
So, after my precious little baby was born (8lb. 6oz) I lost 20 pounds in 2 weeks without trying! I couldn’t believe it. Then I gained 10 of that back in the following months, which was very depressing.
Now, here I am 9 months after baby’s birth and a size 12, 170 pounds, 38E nursing bra (was 36C before).
I never have thought that a 12 looked good, and I am definitely not happy with my weight where it is, but to my amazement, I do feel a little sexy and curvy in my skin. Not sure why that is. I have discovered that clothes are not made to fit a person who is overweight. Nothing ever fits me right or looks quite the way it’s supposed to. Maybe that’s one reason models are so skinny? And why is it so difficult to find a bra bigger than a C or D cup? My goodness I know there are plenty of moms out there that have this problem.
Nevertheless, I do feel sexy when I’m not wearing clothes. When I look in the mirror I don’t see a size 12, or what I always thought an unclothed size 12 would look like.
No matter what, even with all the stretch marks, sagging and fat, I could NEVER regret giving birth to my little angel. He is worth it all.
What’s really wonderful is that he loves and adores me too no matter what I look like. He doesn’t care how fat I am, how messy my hair is, or whether I have any makeup on, he just gazes at me with this adoring look that melts my heart.
To see this beautiful baby and know that he came from me, will always make me feel beautiful.

9 thoughts on “I never thought a size 12 could be sexy before… (Anonymous)

  • Wednesday, February 4, 2009 at 3:29 pm

    I just wanted to say you look good, I’d never think you were 170lb, you don’t look ‘overweight’ to me.

  • Wednesday, February 4, 2009 at 6:58 pm

    I really find your curves feminine and sexy:)

    Not being a mother, yet having issues with my body throughout my life I trully love this site! Your stories and beauty (also this inner one:) are so inspiring to me.

    Besides, I am a member of an internet-based community from Poland which is devoted to lobbying for good bras and inspiring other women how to get one and how to affirmate their breasts.
    Believe me or not, the majority of women wear a wrong bra since the producers simply do not provide all the possible variations of backs and cups.
    In Britian, for instance, you can get backs from 28 to 40, cups from A to K.
    I was wearing 32D all my life and I recently (after joining the Lobby of Big-Breasted Women) learned that I should wear 32G. It is really a change in the quality of everyday life with my body:)
    There are also some good nursing bras available.
    What’s more – even sagging breast change and get back to shape after some months (also when you go to sleep) in well-fitted bras.
    For examples of good bras and how to fit them, you can check http://www.bravissimo.com

    I hope that what we do in Poland can be shared with more women worldwide:)

    All the best,

  • Wednesday, February 4, 2009 at 8:13 pm

    Don’t worry about the numbers, you look fabulous and you are sexy! Definitely not overweight at all!

  • Wednesday, February 4, 2009 at 9:37 pm

    You look great!! My wife shares many of the challenges you have. She was a 36C went to a 36EE to a 36DD and now 36D. I enjoy spoiling my wife, but buying clothes is a hard because I think that manufactures do not make clothes for real women. You and my wife have curves that being a mother can only give a female. Sexiness comes from within, shared with those who love you, thankfully not from a dress size.

    Keep feel’n sexy!!

  • Thursday, February 5, 2009 at 7:05 am

    Go to Victoria secret and get measured. I didn’t go until well after I stopped breastfeeding but if I had it would have saved me months of discomfort. While I was breastfeeding I was larger then a 36E and could find nothing to support me. Leading to sagging breasts. Now, I’m 10months post partum and [stopped bf after 2 months] and I can get into a 34DD.

    As for your weight, you look fabulous! No matter what the numbers say, you’re beautiful!

  • Monday, February 9, 2009 at 4:29 am

    figleaves.com is also an excellent website for larger sized bras. They range from 28A to 56FF and offer up to cup size G in some band sizes. They also have excellent sales too, so even though larger bras are typically more expensive you can find them for a reasonable price there. Zovo.com is another place to check, but they are typically a bit on the pricey side. Very sexy, though. Since Victoria’s Secret doesn’t carry larger bras they often tell you that you are a different size than your actual measurements – I have several friends who were incorrectly sized by them, including one who was told that she was a 36DD when in fact she is a 32G.

  • Monday, March 16, 2009 at 9:16 pm

    A size 12 looks different on everybody.

    That picture rocks.

  • Sunday, March 29, 2009 at 9:31 pm

    great picture! and i know exactly what you mean when you say clothes aren’t made to fit overweight ppl, even if they’re supposed to be M, L or XL. =p

  • Sunday, March 29, 2009 at 10:06 pm

    I’m 5 ft 4 and 144 pounds, and you look no bigger than me at all. (Except the boobs, lol) You really do look great mama!

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