Here Goes Nothing! (Anonymous)

I’m trying to learn to be happy in the moment.
Before I got pregnant(when I was 17), I let others (a super tan, three time Hooters girl, best friend) make me believe my body wasn’t good enough.
So even though deep down I LOVED my body and was VERY happy with what I had, I was ashamed and hid every part of it because a friend told me I was too WHITE and skinny. My husband of two years has never even seen me naked. The hardest part for me now (20), is knowing that I didn’t celebrate my beautiful body when I still had it.
I would give all my fingers and toes and teeth to get that old body back.

I try to remind myself every day that the way I feel now about my pre baby body, is probably the same way I’ll feel about the body I have now in ten years, and I’ll regret not showing this one off too!
Easier said than done though because this new body sucks. I know I could be a lot less attractive, but I can’t help compare myself to others my age…who actually look their age! With their perky, full boobs and tight toned bellies.
I feel like such a frumpy mom, and it’s so hard
for me to be happy with my body when I keep expecting myself to look like a teenager again.

But I know I’m a mom now, and therefore my body is much more precious and BEAUTIFUL than it ever was and will be!! A Mother’s body is the most amazing thing in the world and I try to remember that every time I see my jiggly, walnut tummy :)
And every time I decide to start
saving up for plastic surgery, I realize I would be so upset if I didn’t have my stretch marks and loose skin to remind me of the days when I carried, and gave birth to my wonderful son.

Feeling ashamed of my stomach means missing out on the permanent reminder of how amazing I am!

My biggest goal for this year, is to let my husband finally see me completely naked, in the light. Or at least a swimsuit come summertime. (Hopefully both!)
I have the most amazing husband anyone could ask for, and I know he’ll think I look AMAZING and be more proud of me than ever!

My son Sebastian was born January 31, 2007. The pictures of me were taken today, nearly 2 years later. The others are my boy and my husband Steve.


22 thoughts on “Here Goes Nothing! (Anonymous)

  • Tuesday, February 3, 2009 at 10:40 am

    Seriously, hun, I would kill for your breasts! They’re amazing and your stomach, too. I hope you’re able to reach your goals because you really do look amazing.

  • Tuesday, February 3, 2009 at 11:31 am

    You look amazing! I hope I look as good as you 2 years pp.

  • Tuesday, February 3, 2009 at 11:54 am

    Beautiful family! And I think you look fantastic!

    I’m a ‘young’ mom too and know exactly what you mean.

    Two things though-

    1. Do not ever beat yourself up for not looking like a teenager. You are a WOMAN. I think that that is eons better.

    2. You’re husband will love you naked anway. Trust me, when you are into him and the moment and are free, he certainly is NOT thinking of any body ‘flaws’, just that he’s lucky!

    Luck and Love,


  • Tuesday, February 3, 2009 at 12:05 pm

    I’ve been visiting this site for over a year, but I never post. After seeing your pictures I had to write and tell you that it’s such a shame your husband hasn’t seen you naked in two years because you look great. I don’t believe men are half as critical of our bodies as we are and I’m sure he would think you were incredibly sexy. You have nothing to hide. If you don’t feel comfortable in bright light try candle light…it is soft and flattering.

    (p.s. in ten years you WILL be kicking yourself for not showing off you’re sexy body)

  • Tuesday, February 3, 2009 at 12:36 pm

    can i have boobs like yours please?

  • Tuesday, February 3, 2009 at 2:01 pm

    Honey, I am turned on looking at you ;) Just trying to let you know that you look GREAT and should definitely strip down tonight. He will be THRILLED! And not just because you look so good, but because he loves you.

  • Tuesday, February 3, 2009 at 4:36 pm

    Your husband and son are very cute, individually and together.

    And I agree with the other posters, I think he’d be thrilled to see you naked. You look great!

  • Tuesday, February 3, 2009 at 6:28 pm

    That is one sexy mama!! I love you!!

  • Tuesday, February 3, 2009 at 7:24 pm

    You look amazing! you truly have very nice breasts and sexy hips.

  • Tuesday, February 3, 2009 at 8:19 pm

    You are beautiful. I would NEVER have guessed that this was your body post-partum. And your breasts are so perky! I wish we could all step outside of ourselves and see ourselves the way others do. Good luck on your journey. :)

  • Wednesday, February 4, 2009 at 3:35 pm

    Wow thanks so much for posting this, my body looks much the same as yours and I have been obsessing about my breasts and the way my body doesnt look the same as others of my own age, but after seeing ur pic I feel much better about myself because you look amazing so that means that I must look good too:) thanks a lot

  • Wednesday, February 4, 2009 at 9:50 pm

    I have nothing clever to say other than I am sure your husband will feel like the luckiest man in the universe that you shared an unshameful and undressed with him.

    Please take what the others have posted to your heart because they are speaking from theirs.

    The first step is usually taken with a deep breath… then let it out and live life….

  • Saturday, February 7, 2009 at 6:48 am

    Your breasts look great – no sag at all. I think you have bounced back very well from pregnancy. It just goes to show that we are our own worst critics.

  • Thursday, February 12, 2009 at 4:38 pm

    OMG you still have a great body girl! :) That’s all i have to say.

  • Monday, February 16, 2009 at 10:31 pm

    You are fabulous looking! What the hell did you look like before to make you say that you’d give everything away to get that back? You look stunning. I’m superbly jealous.

  • Tuesday, February 17, 2009 at 7:45 am

    are you insane girl? You look freakin’ amazing!!!

  • Tuesday, February 17, 2009 at 11:52 pm

    your husband has never seen you naked? your beautiful!!!!

  • Friday, February 20, 2009 at 12:25 pm

    You really look amazing! A lot like me, pre-baby! Be proud and make sure you get to enjoy that with your husband!

    Beautiful baby too.

  • Sunday, March 15, 2009 at 12:27 pm

    Wow! You look great! My boobs used to look like that before I had my son and now they’re not nearly as perky! You look wonderful and your family is adorable!

  • Sunday, March 15, 2009 at 11:10 pm

    First you look amazing. I wish you could see it that way. Second tanning is dumb! What is so wrong with being fair skinned? Nothing! It’s being true to yourself. It’s beautiful! It’s natural! Your friend sounds like a very shallow person with bad advice. I’m so glad you didn’t go trying to tan your skin! It’s not even healthy and will leave this girl with premature wrinkles. She will be kicking herself in the butt for tanning when she’s in her 30’s and you can feel good about your young fair skin! Sorry a little vent there but I am totally against tanning!
    But seriouslly you’re beautiful and I hope you can eventurally see that. There’s nothing more freeing then walking around the house naked with your man. It’s sexy and he will love it. Turn on the lights!!!

  • Sunday, March 29, 2009 at 9:33 pm

    oh woman, i’m 24, never been pregnant, and your boobs look SO better than mine! XD

  • Tuesday, March 31, 2009 at 10:58 am

    Wow, you look amazing, I don’t understand your issue. You need new friends who have self esteem and don’t attack yours to feel better about themselves.

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