First Time Mom at 31 (Anonymous)

I have NEVER found myself attractive. I always thought,, once i accept the fact that I’m an unattractive person,,I would feel much better about myself and not worry about it so much. For some reason though, I got a decent amount of attention from boys,, I was the funny girl, but was too shy to really ever commit to a relationship. Had my first real kiss at 19, and tried to make it to marriage before having sex. I was 26 and he ended up being the man I was dreaming about. We’ve now been married almost four years :) I have always been petite with a flat stomach and a big round booty. I even adopted the nickname J.Lo. My husband has been a big self-esteem booster, always calling me little pet names like sexybutt and beautiful. But I’ve still never felt that way about myself. No Biggie I thought. After two years of wonderful marriage, we decided to start trying to get pregnant. Me not getting any younger at the age of 29 and him only 25. I’ve always LOVED children. They are so fun and spontaneous and just themselves. I taught Sunday school and worked with teens in church and have always been a kid at heart. Thought I would love being a mom and be a great one at that.After six months of trying, i was getting very discouraged, no one blood related to me ever had a problem getting pregnant, and it seemed every time i would start my cycle, some young girl with no boyfriend, or friend who wasnt even trying would announce their pregnancy. I tried to remain positive , but it was very hard,, finally after a year of trying, i found out I was pregnant!! We and our families were so happy. Everything was going smoothly, no morning sickness, a healthy amount of weight gain. Then with my glucose screening, found out I had gestational diabetes. I was heartbroken and felt like a failure. My husband and family were very supportive and things started going smoothly again. I wanted to have as natural a birth as possible. I wasnt happy when i found out that they wouldnt let me go past my due date,, and that inductions can sometimes lead to C sections. I took very good care of myself,, watching my diet and exercising. I gained a total of 26 pounds.. starting at 102 lbs at five feet tall. My water broke six days before my due date! I was soooo happy! 10 hours of labor later,, and still only dialated 3, i was NOT. I had a 101 temperature and was getting pumped full of antibiotics and was now put on a Pitocin drip. After two hours of that and only dialated to four,, I decided to get the epidural. I wanted to be strong for pushing. Which would never happen. My fever went up to 102 and my cervix was beginning to swell. After 18 hours of labor and a dialation of 7, they decided on a C section. I wanted to cry, but I also wanted my baby to be safe and healthy. My operation was done in under a half an hour and I got to meet my Beautiful baby girl weighing 6.5 lbs!!! She was finally here.

Recovery was hard,, but with a wonderful husband, supportive friends and family and God,, I made it through PPD without any medication. I now am working through a big battle with my self esteem. This site has already helped me soooo much! I still have about five pounds to lose. The scar doesnt really bother me,, but my softer boobs,, extra cellulite and pouchy belly do. I have posted pics of full term pregnancy,,, one of 4 weeks pp holding my girl and now 3 months pp. You are all awesome! Thanks for sharing your stories and being an encouragement to all these mothers! God Bless!

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10 thoughts on “First Time Mom at 31 (Anonymous)

  • Saturday, August 28, 2010 at 7:33 am

    Ahh you’re so cute! Really, you never found yourself attractive? And only gaining 26 pounds despite the gestational diabetes is AWESOME. You look great, and while I know from personal experiences that the changes are very obvious to you–nobody else would ever guess that you have a 3-month-old. Congratulations on a beautiful baby girl, and awesome husband, and a fantastic body!

  • Saturday, August 28, 2010 at 8:18 am

    You were the cutest pregnant person ever! You look awesome!

  • Saturday, August 28, 2010 at 10:55 am

    no stretch marks so once you get to the weight you want it’s like you were never even preggo. except with the amazing baby to have forever!!! you’re beyond lucky!

  • Saturday, August 28, 2010 at 11:07 am

    WOW, you look amazing after having a baby, How did you stay so skinny and toned???lol

  • Saturday, August 28, 2010 at 11:08 am

    ps…whats this about being 29, who cares, you look hotter and better than women who were younger and had kids! way to go!
    age dont mean anything, its how toned you are! lol

  • Saturday, August 28, 2010 at 2:23 pm

    Oh my goodness, you are gorgeous and cute!! :)
    I think you have an AMAZING body! It is so curvy and slim… beautiful!
    Congratulations on your beautiful little girl!

  • Saturday, August 28, 2010 at 4:26 pm

    You don’t need to worry about a thing. You’re too cute! Oh, and it’s obvious why you had attention from boys and it wasn’t just the sense of humor :)

  • Saturday, August 28, 2010 at 8:37 pm

    You all are so supportive and positive and this site has been such a learning experience. I have four friends who have all had babies in the last week and a half, and I’ve told them about this site. Well, Bree,, besides working 30-35 hrs a week up until i went into labor at a job thats on your feet constantly, i walked about six miles a week with a close friend and only allowed(or was able to allow lol) myself a small treat a handful of times in the last two months. I would actually recommend at least a form of the diet I had to go on for all pregnant women. I felt very healthy and not all deprived. My baby was healthy and not overweight, and I had dropped 14 pounds by the time I left the hosptial. Ill be posting an update at six months,, with more pics of my little doll baby :)

  • Sunday, August 29, 2010 at 1:31 pm

    You look amazing! I do not see how you could not feel beautiful…although I am not one to speak, as I have always been very self conscious. You are adorable! You have a better body than me and I am 24!

  • Sunday, February 13, 2011 at 2:05 pm

    wow you look great! congrats on your baby girl! Im a Christian also. Im 23 with two kids 4 and 2. Glad things went well with your pregnancy besides the emergency c section. But you look great and things seemed to have healed up nice.. good for you!

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