I guess I’ve always had a poor body image. I consider myself a perfectionist and, as such, was always striving for the obvious unattainable “perfect” body. Four years ago, at the age of 32, I had my first child- a beautiful baby boy. I required a C-Section and felt like a complete failure although my child was completely healthy. I also hated my new body. At 11 months postpartum I became pregnant again. At 6 months I went into premature labor and gave birth to another beautiful baby boy who lived for 2 short days and it completely broke my heart. As much as I hate that my son died, I have learned and changed so much as a direct result of that experience. I just had a perfectly healthy baby boy 6 weeks ago via C-Section and I feel blessed beyond words. This time around I am trying to love the body that I’m in although I am ashamed to admit (considering all I’ve been through) that I’m still somewhat focused on my saggy skin and stretch marks.
You look hot. You look better without covering up in shorts. You look great!!!
I’m so sorry to hear about your baby boy dying. The same thing happened to my brother. Whatever happens, though, don’t let it change you or your joyfulness. My parents changed forever after my brother’s death. It seems like my mom lost her mind and my father became angry and depressed. It’s really sad. And my other brother just died, too. I worry about them.I hope that you see the joy in your life and your beautiful children and focus on those wonderful blessings!
God bless……
I agree with Sarah…you look great! You look better without the shorts! I only wished I looked as good as you!