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Unplanned, But Not a Mistake (Anonymous)

August 4, 2009

I was 15 years old, the “boy” I thought I was in Love with, had just broke up with me. I decided to get back at him by sleeping with one of his friends. It was just suppose to be a one time thing just to make my ex, the guy i thought was the love of my life, mad. Well a month later, no period. I took a pregnancy test and it said positive. I was just in complete shock. The guy that was just suppose to be a one time thing, just became the father of my child. At first I kept saying I was going to get an abortion, b/c the father was black and I am white. I didn’t want to deal with all the looks and shame people were going to give me, and because the changes that my body would go through. Then I thought I don’t even believe in abortions, and who cares if i get big? After about a month into the pregnancy, I went in to have my first ultrasound. As soon as I saw MY baby on that screen, I FELL IN LOVE!! I decided I was going to keep the baby. I knew having a baby at 15 was going to be extremely diffucult. But I was willing to accept the consequences. On January 2, 2008 I gave birth to a perfect 6 pounds 4 ounces baby girl! She’s 18 months old now and i’m 17, people do stare at me sometimes, and I get rude remarks, but it doesn’t bother me. All that matters is what I think. My friends ditched me b/c I couldn’t just drop what I was doing anymore to hang out with them. A irresponsible act gave me the greatest gift ever. I wouldn’t trade my baby girl for anything in this world! I truelly have found the love of my life.
I love my body, and call my stretch marks, Beauty marks. I look at my body in the mirror from time to time and think, I brought a beautiful baby into this world, and I would go through all the changes again, in a heartbeat.

1st pic-18 months post partum
2nd pic-me and my baby girl

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7 Responses to “Unplanned, But Not a Mistake (Anonymous)”

  1. Summer Says:
    August 4th, 2009 at 9:13 am

    I’m black and my babies father is white. I would never for a minute think of aborting my child because of that. I’m glad you decided against doing that.. You’re daughter is beautiful.

  2. Angèle Says:
    August 4th, 2009 at 2:08 pm

    I am more than 10 years older than you and I hope one day to have just a bit of the self acceptance that you have for yourself! You are truely beautiful! Daughter, is adorable!!!

  3. Mina Says:
    August 4th, 2009 at 2:41 pm

    You impress me. Your self-esteem is far more intact than that of many of us more than 2x your age. Good for you.

  4. Samantha Says:
    August 4th, 2009 at 8:04 pm

    You are a true inspiration! You and your daughter are sooo beautiful! More young moms and moms-to-be should have your outlook on life!

  5. 15 Weeks Pregnant Says:
    August 5th, 2009 at 7:03 am

    The more colours the better sweetheart, its only the colourblind that can’t see the beauty of colours! You’re one brave mom and your little possum is as cute as a button. Take care and be proud of yourself!

  6. Carla Says:
    August 5th, 2009 at 1:57 pm

    What is there to be ashamed of? She is a miracle, and I’m glad you don’t let anyone convince you otherwise. Being a young mom is hard, but it seems like you have the right idea putting her first before other things that are important to 17 year olds. good job!

  7. Christie Says:
    August 8th, 2009 at 7:38 pm

    We are tummy twins :) And your daughter is an angel! Congratulations on taking on the hardest job in the world as a teenager, I bet you are doing a better job than a lot of the people who look down on you without knowing who you are. Great job mama!


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