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Pride and Struggle with Self Image (Heather)

September 30, 2011

Age: 22

Hello. My name is Heather. I am a very proud mommy of 3 beautiful kids. My children are 2 1/2, 17 months and 6 months. I have been pregnant 5 times in the past three years, but have lost 3 angel babies. One pregnancy was twins.

I first got pregnant at 19..on my birthday, can you believe that? Talk about a birthday present! I first gave birth to a beautiful baby boy, then came two magnificently adorable baby girls. People always tell me that I should know the meaning of birth control BUT I was on birth control when I got pregnant. Lol. I am just a very fertile girl! And my husband has 2x’s the sperm count than a normal man. I would NEVER change a thing. These are my blessings, they are my life.

Before getting pregnant I was 150lbs and a size 5/7. After all my pregnancies I was 240 pounds. Since giving birth to my last baby six months ago I have lost 100+ pounds and now weight 130 pounds and am a size 7/9. My hips have not shrunk back and I doubt they ever will. I can’t get over how saggy and wrinkly my stomach is. When I look at it and touch and pull it feels like the skin of my grandmother. Sometimes I cry because I hate my body so much, and then there are times I carry myself with pride because of what my body has done-given me beautiful children.

With my last child I have Pre-Eclampsia that got me induced at 38 weeks. During labor it progressed to Eclampsia, and my reflexes were a +5…I nearly knocked the doctor out when he did the test on my knees. I got my epidural and then I got put on magensium to help control the Eclampsia. From there my BP went from 170/150 to 50/30…I almost died. I could literally feel the life draining from my body. I had 2 doctors and 3 midwives in my room for hours. Right when my BP dropped no doctors were in my room, and I could hear nurses yelling at the doctors, “Can’t you hear that?!?! Shouldn’t someone be in there?!?”
Not long after I gave birth to my daughter…3 pushes and she was in my arms! :) I did it! We both came out fine. :)

I still relive that birth experience, I see it as a joy instead of a near tragedy! I am one blessed momma!

Sorry for the tangent, I’ve just never told my story before. I am a young, newly single mother of 3 children and I am overall happy. Except for the bouts of severe depression over my body.

Number of pregnancies: 5
Number of births: 3
Ages: 2 1/2, 17m, 6m….I am 6 months postpartum

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8 Responses to “Pride and Struggle with Self Image (Heather)”

  1. ELLA Says:
    September 30th, 2011 at 8:19 am

    I have to say, when i saw ur post and u writing about ur skin feels like ur grandmothers ? i was not expecting to see what i saw in your picture !! i am 27 with a 4 yo… i would give everything to have your body !!! i am still overweight and my tummy is full of stretch marks… honestly, appreciate what you have.

  2. becky Says:
    September 30th, 2011 at 10:41 am

    Its sad to hear you feel that way. Your body from what the pictures show look PERFECTLY FINE! your breast look perky as hell. Its hard for somebody like me to tell you this when you feel so shitty on the inside. But i swear you look really really good. I hope you can over come those feeling and feel better about yourself because you look good!!!!

  3. Kaitlyn Says:
    September 30th, 2011 at 4:22 pm

    Good LORD! You look fantastic!! Your hips are beautiful, such curves. You don’t see what we see..you look great.

  4. Cade Says:
    September 30th, 2011 at 8:11 pm

    You are a very beautiful and desireable young lady.

  5. Amber Says:
    October 1st, 2011 at 6:46 am

    you look GREAT! esp 6 m pp with 3 kids!!! i had one and am no where near comparable… cheer up and be confident in your own skin!!

    blessed and tortured – check out my posts… you look great!

  6. Sarah P. Says:
    October 2nd, 2011 at 2:36 pm

    You look amazing! I can’t believe you just had a baby! You look fabulous. Try not to put so much stress on yourself to look a certain way because you look really great. You look great for anyone’s standards and unbelievable for a woman who is only six months pp and who had three kids, one after the other.
    Look up my pictures. They’re on here. My first post with my daughter was at 5 months postpartum, then I posted at a year and 2 years postpartum. You’ll see that at just 6 months pp, your body still has a lot of healing to do…
    http://theshapeofamother.com/blog/the-evolution-of-a-body-anonymous/

  7. Megan Says:
    October 17th, 2011 at 1:30 pm

    you are a hell of a lot thinner than I am. and I have only had 2 kids and I am over a year postpartum.

  8. John from UK Says:
    April 21st, 2012 at 6:54 pm

    Newly single?? His loss! I’m a hot blooded English male and can tell you without worry – you are an incredibly beautiful woman x

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