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9 Years Ago (Elle)

June 9, 2009

9 years ago I was 18 years old. I had just finished high school and was happy. My plan never included children. I met him on a warm night in August. I became pregnant a few weeks later. I lost my child at 22 weeks gestation. It was depressing and sad. I was a mess. I thought then that I wanted another child. I conceived my daughter on my 19th birthday. I was 170lbs. I gained 23lbs while I was pregnant and gave birth at 193lbs. I breastfed a short time before I was forced to go back to work. That is when I started gaining weight. I was 270lbs 2 years ago. I looked awful. I felt awful. The stretch marks, the saggy boobs, the flabby belly, I was disgusted with myself. I worked little by little in small ways to change the way I looked. I exercised a little more, ate a little better, went out of my way to walk an extra few feet everywhere I went. Today, I am 217lbs. I am still very much overweight, but I am so much healthier and happier than I was this time last year. I took some photos of myself just to see the difference in front of me. I don’t keep mirrors in the house that reflect below the waist. I am so surprised that I am a large sexy woman. I have a beautiful child that I woudn’t trade for the world and I thought she ruined me. I thought she turned me into a stagnant blob. Thank goodness I was wrong! I couldn’t be more pleased and this just makes me want to try that much harder to get down to my pre-pregnancy weight.

I am a few weeks shy of 27 years old
I have had 2 pregnancies and 1 birth
I am 7 years postpartum
plus sized mom

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8 Responses to “9 Years Ago (Elle)”

  1. billboardz360 Says:
    June 9th, 2009 at 1:09 pm

    elle, i am very sorry for your loss but glad to see that you found courage and confidence. Being mentally well, able to experience both highs and lows and persevere, is a very powerful bit of character to have. your attitude is refreshing and i would love to hear more of your story and maybe even help you on your journey back to 170. send me an email if you’d like billboardz360@gmail.com Thnks for sharing!

  2. Janel Says:
    June 9th, 2009 at 1:18 pm

    You are absolutely gorgeous!

    I’m sorry for the death of your first baby (my second daughter was stillborn at fullterm and I know the incredible pain you experience when a baby dies…) and I am so glad you’re taking care of yourself and your daughter. You’re a brave, beautiful woman!

  3. Bernadette Says:
    June 9th, 2009 at 4:36 pm

    You look amazing and I personally have new view of bodyimage since finding this site. You could be my body double!

    Gorgeous!

  4. cmom Says:
    June 9th, 2009 at 5:22 pm

    I rarely comment on these sites, but you look super hot!! 217lbs? Holy crap, that’s a good looking 217!

  5. mrs. petunia Says:
    June 9th, 2009 at 8:44 pm

    Wow! You are one hot mama! And your attitude is so inspiring. Thank you so much for sharing your story and beautiful pictures.

  6. Rebecca Says:
    June 11th, 2009 at 3:15 am

    wow, you look great. keep it up and don’t be ashamed of that body

  7. Shawna Says:
    June 25th, 2009 at 9:00 pm

    You don’t look like your 217 pounds. I know you’ll read this and it won’t matter much because I’ve been there and when people compliment me I say pffff what do you know.

    But…you look amazing.

  8. elle Says:
    June 27th, 2009 at 10:23 am

    Thank you all so much for the sweet comments. I am continuing my weight loss and feeling better every day. I am now down to 213!! I also hooked up with an old flame and I had totally forgotten how much fun we had together so many years ago!

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