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9 Years Ago (Elle)

June 9, 2009

9 years ago I was 18 years old. I had just finished high school and was happy. My plan never included children. I met him on a warm night in August. I became pregnant a few weeks later. I lost my child at 22 weeks gestation. It was depressing and sad. I was a mess. I thought then that I wanted another child. I conceived my daughter on my 19th birthday. I was 170lbs. I gained 23lbs while I was pregnant and gave birth at 193lbs. I breastfed a short time before I was forced to go back to work. That is when I started gaining weight. I was 270lbs 2 years ago. I looked awful. I felt awful. The stretch marks, the saggy boobs, the flabby belly, I was disgusted with myself. I worked little by little in small ways to change the way I looked. I exercised a little more, ate a little better, went out of my way to walk an extra few feet everywhere I went. Today, I am 217lbs. I am still very much overweight, but I am so much healthier and happier than I was this time last year. I took some photos of myself just to see the difference in front of me. I don’t keep mirrors in the house that reflect below the waist. I am so surprised that I am a large sexy woman. I have a beautiful child that I woudn’t trade for the world and I thought she ruined me. I thought she turned me into a stagnant blob. Thank goodness I was wrong! I couldn’t be more pleased and this just makes me want to try that much harder to get down to my pre-pregnancy weight.

I am a few weeks shy of 27 years old
I have had 2 pregnancies and 1 birth
I am 7 years postpartum
plus sized mom

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8 Responses to “9 Years Ago (Elle)”

  1. billboardz360 Says:
    June 9th, 2009 at 1:09 pm

    elle, i am very sorry for your loss but glad to see that you found courage and confidence. Being mentally well, able to experience both highs and lows and persevere, is a very powerful bit of character to have. your attitude is refreshing and i would love to hear more of your story and maybe even help you on your journey back to 170. send me an email if you’d like Thnks for sharing!

  2. Janel Says:
    June 9th, 2009 at 1:18 pm

    You are absolutely gorgeous!

    I’m sorry for the death of your first baby (my second daughter was stillborn at fullterm and I know the incredible pain you experience when a baby dies…) and I am so glad you’re taking care of yourself and your daughter. You’re a brave, beautiful woman!

  3. Bernadette Says:
    June 9th, 2009 at 4:36 pm

    You look amazing and I personally have new view of bodyimage since finding this site. You could be my body double!


  4. cmom Says:
    June 9th, 2009 at 5:22 pm

    I rarely comment on these sites, but you look super hot!! 217lbs? Holy crap, that’s a good looking 217!

  5. mrs. petunia Says:
    June 9th, 2009 at 8:44 pm

    Wow! You are one hot mama! And your attitude is so inspiring. Thank you so much for sharing your story and beautiful pictures.

  6. Rebecca Says:
    June 11th, 2009 at 3:15 am

    wow, you look great. keep it up and don’t be ashamed of that body

  7. Shawna Says:
    June 25th, 2009 at 9:00 pm

    You don’t look like your 217 pounds. I know you’ll read this and it won’t matter much because I’ve been there and when people compliment me I say pffff what do you know.

    But…you look amazing.

  8. elle Says:
    June 27th, 2009 at 10:23 am

    Thank you all so much for the sweet comments. I am continuing my weight loss and feeling better every day. I am now down to 213!! I also hooked up with an old flame and I had totally forgotten how much fun we had together so many years ago!


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