I am a 20 yr old mother. I couldn’t have imagined that I’d be able to do this well as a mother before I had my son, but I always knew I’d do my best. I doubted that my best would be good enough, but I never knew at the time that it would come so easy when I felt that almost too-strong love I have for my son. I love being a mother and I wouldn’t trade that to have my body back, but this doesn’t change that I want to break down every time I look in the mirror. I always struggled with my weight, except RIGHT before I got pregnant. I finally reached my goal weight, and I was a size 6. From age 13 I had always fluctuated between a size 11 and 13. Then, I gained 80lbs during my pregnancy, and have lost 45 since. I stopped losing weight about seven months ago however, and can’t seem to get it started back up. Now I am left with this and I cant help but wonder how anyone can embrace their bodies when this is what it looks like. I don’t want to insult anyone.. that’s not my reason for posting.. I’m just jealous I guess. I wish I could accept this, and maybe even love it.. I just don’t see how it’s possible. I hate looking in the mirror. Most of the time I really take a good look at my stomach I can’t hold the tears back.