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Tiny Dancer (Anonymous)

April 14, 2008

I spent years learning to dance and perform. Ballet, jazz and modern dance as a child and as I got older training alongside some of the best known circus performance artists at a specialized gym. I always wanted to be a model but at barely 5’1 I found work but not in the fashion industry. Working as a dancer and pt adult model left me with a very vanity driven sense of worth. If I were thin, toned and tanned I wouldn’t have a care in the world. I was miserable spending 8 hours a night working in a hustler club to support such a frivolous lifestyle. Six years in the industry left me tired and in need of a new life. On august 28 2007 I sobbed in my bathroom over my third positive pregnancy test. I was 23 years old and I was divorcing my junky musician husband. I had been drinking a lot, and obviously not taking enough precaution. Months later I have reached 38 weeks. I wont tell you I love my expanding body. I appreciate its ability to modify, adapt and produce human life. There isn’t a night that I don’t dream of fluidly moving my weightless form in one-way or another. This baby is the light at the end of my tunnel. Without it I would have never slowed down enough to find the man of my dreams, he would never have had the chance to show me what a little unconditional love could do. I look forward to the birth of our little boy/girl. To spread my new wings. Teach them and guide them in everything I myself fell short of. But most of all I cant wait to hold my little one in my arms and dance.




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5 Responses to “Tiny Dancer (Anonymous)”

  1. Rachel Says:
    April 14th, 2008 at 3:20 pm

    The belly pic in the tub is adorable and really artistic. I love it.

  2. Danica Says:
    April 14th, 2008 at 4:19 pm

    Congratulations to you on both your pregnancy and finding a happier path for yourself! Your photos are beautiful; I love the way your tattoo looks on your round belly. Wishing you a wonderful labor and birth, and much joy as a new mama.

  3. Sarah Says:
    April 16th, 2008 at 2:51 pm

    Wow! You look so beautiful! :D

  4. Heather Says:
    April 25th, 2008 at 9:23 am

    Your story literally left me in tears, it’s amazing that you’ve gone through so much and can still keep your chin up. I have so much respect for you right now Your story literally left me in tears, it’s amazing that you’ve gone through so much and can still keep your chin up. I have so much respect for you right now <3

  5. chantal Says:
    April 29th, 2008 at 11:45 am

    i modeled and know what it’s like to identify so much with your appearance. it’s hard to leave behind your perfect body when you find out you’re pregnant. barely 5’11 should have gotten you plenty of jobs lol

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