This site is such an amazing inspiration. I have battled with issues with my weight since I was very young and the present is no exception. I have one child who is turning 18mths old this week. He is my world and brings such a joy to my life, but I can’t help feeling a void inside. I’ve never thought I was ugly and have always loved my stomach.. it was my one attribute that I absolutly loved and showed off, but not anymore!Im thankful I have a supportive husband and I have been blessed that at age 22, I am able to be a stay at home mom and go to school to achieve my dreams and aspirations. One dream I have always felt will never come true, is to appreciate the body God gave me because I know he has made me in his image, but I can’t help looking in the mirror and wanting to change a thousand and one things about myself. After graduating highschool I focused on work and the infinite party scene and the weight stayed pretty steady since I worked out 6days a week, but my hours changed and became lazy in my work out routine. When I got married 3months later I had gained 10lbs hitting 145lbs and I’ve yo-yo’d ever since. My husband is in the military and after being married 2 years and going through 3 deployments we decided to try for our first baby. At the time I was a little hesitant only because I had hit an all time high with my weight and my 5ft even frame was a whopping 178lbs! I didn’t want to break my husband’s heart and I desperately wanted a child myself so, weight asside we went for it and 2 weeks later after our first attemt, we were pregnant! With all the excitement I forgot about my weight issue and proceeded to eat whatever I craved. PaneraBread Iced Mocha’s being at the top of my list, Dairy Queen Blizzards next, and then dark soda! I’ve always been a water drinker so the soda was what my husband and I considered my weirdest craving! Needless to say I craved the worst items to put into my body at that time in my life. Until about 7months I had only gained about 20lbs and no stretch marks on my tummy were to be found (I did break out really bad with them on the back of my legs though, but that doesn’t bother me too much). After that I had officially popped and my tummy was covered from right side to the left, I was devistated! The day my water broke (exactly 38wks) I had hit 216lbs. I Breastfed and walked alot after coming home with my beautiful babyboy and dropped 20lbs in 2weeks, then I hit a plateau. It wasn’t until I was 10mths postpardum and decided to try weight watchers and finally dropped another 30lbs in 3mths, but when I hit a 3wk plateau I lost motivation again and then came the holidays and well here I am almost another 4mths have gone by and I’ve put back on about 10lbs. I have consistently done pilates 2x a week since August and I’ve slowly started back up on weight watchers and trying to add more into my workout routine. It’s a very slow process, but reading the other mothers stories on this site, It gives me that extra motivation to go forward. Day by day I’m learning to appreciate my new body and everytime I look at my baby boy I know that my body is just a simple reminder of the beautiful gift God gave me!
**Description of the pics I’ve included..the 1st one is my gorgeous family taken @ 3mths p.p., 2nd one is a recent one of my babyboy, 3rd one is me 11mths postpardum, and the last 2 are me now underneath the sheild of clothing!**