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Feeling Myself Again, Even Though I’m So Different (Amanda C)

March 27, 2012

~Age: 24
~Number of pregnancies and births: 1
~The age of your children, or how far postpartum you are: 9 and a half months daughter Sadie…

My name is Amanda I am 24 and have had one pregnancy where I gave birth to my daughter May 17 2011. She is almost 10 remember being about 6 months pregnant and was thinking that I was safe no weight gain no stretch marks.. i still remember the day i spotted just 1 stretch mark and started to panic i went straight to the pharmacy to get bio-oil and three other stretch mark creams … I remember crying and hating my body as I went from being 160lbs to 230 at the end of my pregnancy… I had stretch marks on my boobs, legs. arms, back of my knees, hips and stomach. At the end of my pregnancy I should have been so happy to have my beautiful daughter and well I was extremely happy!! I was depressed about the way i looked i didn’t want pictures taken with my daughter i didn’t want anyone seeing me i basically hid out in my house. I was just not myself i didn’t smile i didn’t laugh i didn’t joke. … as on January 10 2012 I stopped sulking and finally did something i started dieting and exercising and have managed to lose 35 lbs so far! i went from 230 to currently 195! My stretch marks are still there but I now love them!! there is a mark for every wiggle every breath and every blink my angel took while my body withstood amazing obstacles and HOUSED a life that I brought to this earth <3 I thought it was the stretch marks that were my biggest problem but they weren’t the problem was my weight which i had to realize I CAN CONTROL I just have to try! Now that i am losing weight i feel great! i want to go for walks get out of the house I want to show off my body WITH my new stretch marks!! I want everyone to know I had a baby! THIS BODY MADE A LIFE! Some may think its ugly or even disgusting to look at but that’s really completely fine with me cause these stretch marks represent where I met the love of my life.. they represent the most important thing in my life <3 I feel so empowered! Its just so amazing that something I was so terrified of something I couldn’t control or prevent became my stripes of pride!

Pic 1 and 2: Are pre pregnancy pictures (when i thought i was my happiest)

Pic 3: Is me 6 and a half months pregnant.
Pic 4: Is me 9 months pregnant ( big weight gain)

Pic 5 and 6: when I gave birth to my angel (notice my stretch marks)

Pic 7 and 8: my post pregnancy weight gain you can just tell by the look on my face that i am not happy at all. No confidence …
Pic 9: here i was at about 20 pounds weight loss!! I Look so ALIVE compared to my previous 2 post pregnancy pictures.
pic 10 and 11: Are ME CURRENTLY!! what my belly looks like now at almost 10 months post partum… lost 35 lbs since January 10!!

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5 Responses to “Feeling Myself Again, Even Though I’m So Different (Amanda C)”

  1. Sarah Says:
    March 28th, 2012 at 1:22 pm

    You look great! You have worked hard to lose the weight and you’ve done a great job!!! Congratulations! Thanks for sharing your story. Sadie is a beautiful little girl! :)

  2. Rianon Says:
    April 4th, 2012 at 2:44 am

    I love your story! You sound like you are on the right track towards being healthy!!

  3. Lachele Says:
    April 24th, 2012 at 3:40 pm

    I relate to your story so much! Its a struggle to find yourself, but it is possible to be happy again. In a different body! A body that gave life to your beautiful daughter!

  4. Kelly Says:
    May 8th, 2012 at 9:22 pm

    You’re post is very inspirational. Thank you!

  5. meaghan Says:
    May 12th, 2012 at 1:48 pm

    I love you beautiful lady!! Thanks for making all of us overweight or stretch mark filled mothers gain some confidence with your beautiful story. Im so proud to call you my bff.

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