4Th pregnancy here.
This time around I have experience and a 5 year gap. A new husband and career which means … Things are different.
10yr, 7yr and 5yr old have taught me alot. Seems I am suppose to know exactly what to do. Only now instead of homeschooling stay at home mom, I am a business owner entrepreneur starting all over. Why? Lol man goes to school full time in a few months and I am free. Something fantasized about for years. Freedom! Turns out there is this one thing I am good at and appreciated for called Mothering.
My partner does not have children and this has been a topic from the beginning. Bringing family together, moving on, committing, whatever the overlying reason to make it okay the truth is. Ahhh, I secretly miss being pregnant and having my arms full and nap times and the sensitivity level I acquire through the whole busy process. Purpose? More satisfying than Making globs of money.
Seems now it is happening and I am hunkering down wishing I would have gotten back to my pre baby body after this last one and not lost in divorce. Wishing I would have written down little bits that I learned. Setting my standards higher than before because well I am experienced right. Gotta jazzercise untill at least 5 months, even though in the last 5 years I have broken 9 bones. Gotta eat well and not gain to much this time cause 50 lbs is hard to lose. Must keep my clients and continue to expand and the list piles up.
In the mean time I am sleeping at noon in a messy house craving carbs untill my kids come back from their fathers at 5 thinking …. I am giving up my kid-free time and my time freedom in the day again adding more to my to do list… And it never felt more right.
6 weeks today with the 4th baby.
Feeling glad I am not the only one.
Just snapped some photos because this is happening and I love this body.