I went into the hospital at 7:30 am to be induced. After several hours of my baby’s heart rate being consistently low and frequently dipping further it was clear she was not coping well with labor and with my cervix refusing to dilate past 2cm despite doing all we could we knew that a vaginal birth would not be possible and I went in to have a c section a little after 2 am. Although some people see it as such, a cesarean is not “the easy way out”, it does not make me any less of a mother nor does it make my daughters birth any less valid. This was not something I wanted or expected. It was very scary and upsetting, it was painful, and the recovery has been slow and difficult, but the umbilical cord was wrapped around her throat three times so it needed to happen so my baby could be born safe and healthy and I would do it again in a heartbeat for her. She is perfect, the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen, and this scar is a reminder that we did what was necessary for her sake and I am incredibly proud of that.
21 years old
2 weeks postpartum
I did a thing, you guys. And it will make all your dreams come true!
You know how every morning, you sit at your kitchen table with your cereal and you’re just like “wow. i wish i were getting emails about what’s going on with SOAM these days”?
WELL NOW YOU CAN!
You’ll get emails about twice a month keeping you up to date with SOAM happenings. And since this is our anniversary year, there are a ton of happenings! Photo projects, contests, a collab video, vlogs, book clubs- a ton of stuff you don’t want to miss!
See the menu bar at the top of this (and every) page? Click on “Mailing List” to go to the form to fill out. (I am not sure yet if this works on mobile – if you don’t have access to a computer, don’t worry, I’ll be working on a reliable mobile way to join soon!)
If you head over to our Facebook page there is a tab at the top where you can add yourself to our mailing list. (This definitely only works on desktop as of right now, not mobile- sorry!)
This is new to me so lmk if there are any issues and I’ll sort it as quick as I can.
Go sign up! Yayayayay!
I found out I was pregnant just before Christmas, after a few weeks of morning sickness and painful cramps. But I unfortunately made the decision to have a termination due to many different factors in my life and haven’t told anybody about it apart from my boyfriend. We’ve been together now for over two and a half years and he’s been so supportive with everything. I can talk to Him about anything but I feel embarrassed, guilty and very selfish about what I’ve done and have started to fall into a sort of depression. My older sister found out she was expecting a few weeks before I did and seeing her go through this experience when I could have been as well is killing me. I know it’s my own fault but it was the right decision for us both at the time. I just want my angel to know that I am so sorry for everything that has happened I know that doesn’t make up for what I have done, but I will love you forever.
I was just in need of some support or advice