Births: 1 daughter now age 3 via c-section
I went through alot before I was pregnant. I was using drugs, drinking,smoking, and had 8 years of history dealing with Anorexia/Bulemia to a very full extent. When I got pregnant I quit them all cold turkey. Started out 110lbs give or take… and on teh day I delivered consequently I weighed 236 lbs.. from no metabolic rate left.. awent through alot of depression and the worst fatigue of my life… and CRYING.. and panic atatcks from crazy hormones and the works haha… trust me.. thought things would never get better.. but my daughter kept me laughing at myself all along the way.. I mean honestly teh irony of starvign myself half to death for 8 years just to gain over 100 lbs in the end was a little amusing ( much later on ) and good times and getting though. Just knowing I had to love myself for her to love in her life without bounderies.
Anywase It’s 3 years later.. have been down a long hard road, have gone through a marriage, a divorce, loosing 115lbs…. yada yada.. still have my shelf tucked under my underwear line. lol. but I don’t even care anymore… why becuase I donno who can shove out 10 grand for a dang tummy tuck, well it aint me for sure. Im now a single mom. Through everything I have not touched drugs again. My eating disorder is currently at bay, and is not how I lost my weight. Im dating again, loving my life with my daughter. I knwo she was always the bigger picture. I would do it all over again in a heart beat to make sure that heart beat made it here.. just as I know all you mommies woudl too right! Becuase we are seriously strong as women aren’t we? I am so proud to have a daughter.. and now i wear my c-section as my battle wound proud :)