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Three Years Later (Christina)

May 8, 2012

Age-31years
Number of Pregnancies/Births-2
Children Aged 5 and 3..sooo postpartum 3years.

So, I came across this website sometime in the last three years. I have glanced at it over time and read some of the submissions. I have hated my body, been disgusted, even resented my children at times for causing my body such changes. Before I had children I was in incredible shape, I was going to start working towards figure/bodybuilding competition. I informed my husband that I couldn’t do both, compete and have kids, at least not at the same time. I explained to him what such extreme training can do to your period and your cycle. So we chose to start our family. I was roughly about 150lbs pre-pregnancy the first time. I gained 50lbs with him, I was just over 200lbs by the time I went into labor.
There were two years in between my children, and I can honestly say that I didn’t make enough effort to loose the extra weight. I didn’t think there was much point since I was going to be getting pregnant again. So I became pregnant with baby #2 and weighed somewhere around the high 150′s. Again I gained 50lbs. Not to sure how this happened since I was more aware of my food choices, chasing a toddler and working a full-time physically demanding job! At time of delivery I was around 210lbs.

Three years later I have hovered between 186 (my highest) and 168lbs. I have even stopped taking hormonal birth control and have chosen to use a fertility awareness method, tracking body temperature and such. I am currently having my thryoid checked on a regular basis, since it seems to be just low enough to register, but not enough to really deal with it yet, so my doctor tells me. It has taken me three years to work up the courage to post to this website. While I have still chosen to give another name (my own, but not my common one), it would seem I’m not completely comfortable, but maybe this website and my story and pictures will help me to accept my own tiger stripes. Maybe someone else can relate to me.

On a side note I have recently kicked my exercise habits into high gear with some intense tabata training, bootcamps, cardio and heavy weights, so we’ll see what the next few months brings. But I think this came with a new awareness, understanding and acceptance of my body as it was! My battle scars!

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2 Responses to “Three Years Later (Christina)”

  1. mrspetunia Says:
    May 8th, 2012 at 6:26 pm

    If your thyroid is measuring low, even if the doctor is reluctant to treat, I would pursue having it looked into further. It sounds like you are suffering from the effects of low thyroid and you may feel much better with treatment.

  2. krystal Says:
    June 26th, 2012 at 4:10 pm

    I think you should consider talking to someone because in my opinion, and please don’t take this the wrong way, your body image is distorted. You are in great shape with a stomach that most women would kill for pre or post pregnancy! The problem is that when we have insecurities and don’t address them or share them, they become completely blown out proportion in our minds. I hope I look as good as you post-partum!!

    I hope that your new exercise regime gives you the confidence that you deserve. It’s easier said than done but we have to let the “old me” go and embrace who we are today. I have stretch marks on my sides, belly, and breasts and at first I was shocked/disgusted but then I thought “no”. I’m not going to let this define me. So what if I don’t look 18 anymore? This is the new me and the new me is bringing life to my baby girl. That’s something to be proud of, not ashamed! Every day I make myself put on my bikini and head to the pool. I refuse to hide or be insecure about my body.

    I hope things get better for you soon.

    Best wishes.

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