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Teen Learning to Love Her Body (Faith)

I was 14 years old and dateing this 16 year old guy. we were going out for about 2 months, and he invited me over to his house while his parents where away. i was kinda sketchy about it, but i trusted him, so i decited to go to his house. while we where in his basement, he asked if i wanted to have sex. I told him that i’m not ready yet, and he just kept on asking me. he promised he would use a condom. he finaly got me to, and he got ontop of me. after about a minute, it didnt feel right. i could then tell he wasnt wearing one. i tried pushing him off of me, but then he started to get aggressive and held me down. i told him to get off of me, and he said that if i didnt let him finish, he would tell my dad i was sneaking out with him and doing drugs (which i smoked pot once before that. and i DID end up getting caught anyway.) so i was in shock, and about 10 minutes later, he got off me. i was disgusted, and just left. i called him up the next day and told him im breaking up with him. i was afraid to tell anyone of what had happened.
a month past, and my period was late. i started getting morning sickness. i was going out with another boy when i found out i was pregnant. he was the first person i told, and he said that if i didnt get an abortion, he would break up with me because he didnt want to be embarassed by having a “fat” girlfriend. he was my only friend at the time. my dad never spent time with me, and my mom had passed away about 3 years before that. my brother was moved out of the house, and i was a lone.
the day after halloween, i sat my dad down and told him i was pregnant. he went out and got a test, and i took it it came up “pregnant”. at that point, reality hit me. i was going to have a baby. i was going to have an abortion. i thought i would do it before i started to show. that night, i realized im resposible for 2 people now. i fell in love with the baby.
i told my boyfriend im leaving him before he left me, and i was going to give birth to this child. so he was gone. a long time friend came around, and we started talking a lot. his name was dustin. i finaly told him about 2 weeks later that i was pregnant. he was in shock. i had told him what happened, and he was there for me. (and now were dating (: )
i decited i needed to give my baby up for adoption. i wanted to keep him, but i wanted him to have a dad and a mom that will be there all the time for him. me and my dad found a couple through an agency. loriston and lisa where their names, and they were the perfect couple i have ever seen. we met up with them. they were so nice. i chose them.
i went into the 20 week ultrasound, and guess what? ITS A BOY!!. i was so excited. the family was also excited.
on june 18th at 7:11 i gave birth to a healthy 9lb 10 oz baby. we named him Torren Dwane Reed.
this is me at 40 weeks 3 days (a day before being induced. june 17th, 2009) :


this is me now at 15 years old (1 week 1 day post pardum):


the mom gave me a teddy bear from build-a-bear workshop that if you squeeze his chest, you can feel a pulse of a heart. they also gave one to Torren.
i love the adoptive family.

Updated here.

in Adoption, Belly, First Pregnancy, Plus-Sized Mom, Postpartum, Pregnant, Sexual Abuse/Violence, Submissions, Teen Mom, Update

82 comments… add one

  • Abby Tuesday, July 28, 2009, 4:52 pm

    You are such an amazingly strong person! Good for you knowing what was best for you and your baby even when you had very little support. I am glad that you have met a nice man who supports you. =]

  • Nutmeg Sunday, August 2, 2009, 10:31 pm

    You are so brave and you have a wonderful spirit. You did a wonderful thing for your son and the adoptive parents, i am sorry for what you went through and i want you to know you are blessed.

  • rehana bahman Tuesday, August 4, 2009, 2:47 am

    you r the real women and one thing i wana say is its the end of bad times for you and the begening of happeness and for that gerkk…. its the begening of troubles cause he lost the real angel and baby angel.love your spirit and brave heart.

  • Ramin bahman Tuesday, August 4, 2009, 2:55 am

    Me and my wife rehana bahman are crying but we both love your spirit as my wife said that you are the real women she is wright cause real women is mother like (marry) god bless you and your cute child.

  • Rehana bahman Tuesday, August 4, 2009, 3:01 am

    you made me so cry but wana say that you are the real women cause the real women is mother god bless you and your child.

  • Nicolle Monday, August 17, 2009, 12:50 am

    Look at all the comments! But, I have to add my own. You are amazing! I cried reading your post. What that boy did was horrible and criminal, and what you chose to do was incredibly selfless and loving. How lucky the couple who had the fortune to meet you and how blessed the child that you gave an opportunity at life. Best of luck to you and I pray that you are repayed for your brave sacrifice for the rest of your life!

  • Alana Tuesday, August 18, 2009, 6:15 pm

    Giving a baby up for adoption shows the most maturity and selflessness anyone can have. Must have been a very tough choice, and a hard thing to do. There is no better gift than you can ever give anyone…..and you have given that to your child. My son’s name is also Tauren…..we just spelled it different!!!! I love the name!!!

  • Sky Tuesday, September 1, 2009, 1:36 pm

    Thank you for your bravery with sharing your story!!I was 15 when I had my first child and struggled with my body image too. I also gave my child to a wonderful loving family. Just wanted to share with you I know the uncomfortable of being quit young and the changed our body’s go threw. You (we) made a wonderful choice of giving life and you have the wonderful birthing marks to show for it!! Blessing to you on your life journey!!

  • shanen Saturday, September 19, 2009, 9:33 am

    you are a brave and strong woman. what happened was rape nothing less. and the bast….d should be shot or havehis thing cut off.

  • deanna Tuesday, October 6, 2009, 9:21 pm

    you are so beautiful.

  • Erin Tuesday, October 13, 2009, 8:49 pm

    You are so brave and amazing and beautiful. Take care of yourself and may all your dreams become a reality!

  • Carol Friday, October 16, 2009, 3:10 pm

    what beauty you have created from ashes! you deserve everything good in the world! you have shown pure unadulterated love to your child!

  • Becca Saturday, October 31, 2009, 3:15 pm

    Your story has made me cry, to give your baby the best life you possibly could is the ultimate act of selfless love. You must have such inner strength and courage far beyond your years. I hope you find happiness in your own life. Your story has inspired me to love my own baby and always strive to give him the best life, whatever the personal cost.

  • Rebecca Wednesday, November 18, 2009, 3:34 pm

    This is truly the most loving and selfless thing you could have done for your child, and I really admire you for it.

  • Melissa Wednesday, November 18, 2009, 10:11 pm

    You are amazing. You are half my age and yet my biggest hero. That boy should be in jail for what he did to you.
    There are very few people in this world that could turn a situation like the one you found yourself in around like that.The gift that you so selflessly gave to your baby the couple who adopted him is incredible and you are beautiful (inside and out!) May God bless you with love and more love for as long as you live sweet-heart.<3

  • Sarah Saturday, November 21, 2009, 7:34 pm

    Brave. Strong. Beautiful. Mature. Generous. Amazing. And you’re just getting started, you’re only 15! I am sure that you have many more amazing things to offer the world. Society (the law) let you down and for that I am sorry. You are one fantastic Mother!

  • Laura Thursday, December 3, 2009, 11:57 pm

    I read your post and teared up immediately. You have done an amazing thing, as everyone else has said above. I can’t even come up with anything to say that would express a feeling that others haven’t. All I can say is you really moved me tonight, and I hope all the best for you :)

  • Momto7 Sunday, December 20, 2009, 10:02 am

    I just wanted to comment.You were so brave to put your son up for adoption.I had my 1st when I was just barely 16.I couldn’t and didn’t even think of adoption.But we came from different families.Mine was there to support me.The father was not but its ok.I now have a wonderful(who drives me insaine lol)17yr old,5 other children and one more on the way.You made another family so happy by giving them a gift you grew inside you for 9 months.I am very proud of you.And wow your son was 1lb more than mine was at birth.You stayed healthy and was a responsible pregnant mother.Hugs!!

  • Angela Tuesday, January 19, 2010, 8:20 pm

    you are an amazing girl. im so sorry that happened to you. the stretch marks will fade sweetie, no worries. take care of yourself, please. :)

  • Joann Kenney Thursday, April 22, 2010, 11:07 am

    Your story is such an inspiration!! I cried trying to read the story to my husband and daughter. It took me forever to get through the whole thing! You have a beautiful body, especially after giving birth! Continue to be strong! Blessings, Joann

  • zoe Friday, April 23, 2010, 6:24 pm

    You are awesome!!!! To have the sense of mind at your age to do something like that makes me so emotinal!!You are wonderful. I had 2 children and gave my daughter up when i was 23. People like us need to stick together. We are still mothers.

  • Jahnava Sunday, April 25, 2010, 10:05 pm

    You are so brave and so beautiful.

  • Beth Thursday, May 20, 2010, 9:06 am

    Your story brought tears to my eyes. You are a wonderful human being for bring your baby into the world and helping a couple expand their family. The marks will fade.
    May all blessings be upon you.

  • Lynn Friday, June 4, 2010, 5:55 pm

    I love the ending. How she acting so mature and gave the baby a chance. God bless her. She is a strong Woman!

  • DeAnna Thursday, August 12, 2010, 5:43 pm

    Be strong mama! you’re an inspiration to teen mothers.

  • Amie Sunday, August 29, 2010, 6:33 am

    You are beautiful. You are lovely. You are stronger than you think. Keep your chin up, and know that there are adults with far more resources and life experience who would not have been able to survive and cope like you. Know that at your young age, you’re already an example of how resilient the human spirit can really be. I admire you, and hope that you know you are priceless. May the road ahead of you be full of blessings, comfort and love.

  • Terisa Wednesday, February 2, 2011, 7:18 pm

    Out of all of these stories yours has been the one that will alway’s stick with me! You made the best decision for your child. Being unselfish! GOD BLESS YOU AND YOUR BABY BOY!

  • Terressa Wednesday, February 16, 2011, 10:31 am

    I’m also a 15 year old mom (pregnant at 14) and I just wanted to say that your story is amazing. I still after 5 months postpartum look very similar to you and it is nothing to be ashamed of. You did something amazing and you should be proud. And I think you’re an extremely strong person for making the decision to give your baby boy up for adoption.

  • Jessica Fuss Sunday, April 17, 2011, 7:24 am

    Your story has made me cry. you have touched my heart. Love yourself and your beautiful decisions. be well.

  • Devon Friday, April 29, 2011, 1:44 pm

    You are so strong! Amazing what you did :)

  • Chelsea Thursday, January 26, 2012, 1:47 pm

    Hmmm… I don’t know where to start… First, I LOVE your story… such a happy ending to an awful nightmare. Chin up, you’re such an obviously wonderful, selfless, courageous, mature person. Secondly, keep trying to report it. He needs to be punished.

  • Jenny Sunday, March 4, 2012, 3:52 am

    This is the most beautiful story. I can’t imagine going through this. You made an incredibly amazing selfless decision first to bring the baby here and give him a stable home. I see this was in 2009 do you should be 17 or 18 now. I’m sure you’re mom would be proud and I am sure your boy
    And his new family are eternally grateful to you

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