~Number of pregnancies and births: 1
~The age of your children, or how far postpartum you are: 6 month
This is my first pregnancy and I should admit I was not quite ready emotional to things happened to me. I love my little girl who is 6 month old now but there are some things that upsets me a lot. I was 125 lbs before pregnancy and I already returned back to my weight. Still I am not happy with my body: there are some days I look at myself in a mirror and I think its ok it could be worse ( I did not get any stretchmarks) and sometimes the look of my body just upsets me so much. Recently I went to the pool that I was really excited about it since it was my first time after birth. Well, let me tell you I felt extremely insecure, I still have this line across my stomach and I felt like I am really chubby in comparison to other girls with perfect bodies. I am not saying anything about my boobs, they are saggy anyway. At the same time I am deeply ashamed of my own stupid behavior, I should just enjoy every minute playing with my little miracle but I choose to poison myself with negative thoughts. I do work out, try dieting but even with my weight 125 lbs I still look different.