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Hello, im 36 and have 2 beautiful children ? aged 12 and 7.

My first pregnancy came at a time of such a huge loss. Only months before a huge part of my life passed away and the grief was immersurable. The pregnancy brought to us such excitement. I neglected to think what i ate would forever change my body. I thought i could eat what i want and at the end the weight would drop off and all would return to normal! Yikes was i delusional. Little size 8 grew to a 16!! Im short so the weight gain caused stretch marks on my tummy, breasts and my thighs and even calves! I had dark marks all over my tummy and i was so ashamed of my naked body. I was so depressed but so in love with my bundle of joy. He brought so much love into our lives that helped with healing such a broken heart.

I got post natal drepression and PTSD and lost a lot of weight fast. My stretch marks faded to mostly indented silvery lines i went Back to a size 8 by time he was 1. My once were gorgeous perky boobs were saggy and unrecognisable. My nipples had grown so much bigger through pregnancy and not returned to the size they had been. My tummy was more like a bobbly pouch. I hated my breasts so much i tried to wrap them with long cloth so they would be pressed hard against my body so i didnt notice them as much.

5 years later i was pregnant with my second son. I didnt gain as much weight with him and loved my milky boobies that were huge! It gave me a bit more cinfidence however during breast feeding i put on a lot more weight and have yo yo’d ever since hovering between a size 8 to 12. At the moment im a large 12 but hope to get back on top of healthy eating and exercise to drop the extra weight.

I have obsessed about my boobs and dream of having breast augmentation. I’ve researched other women who have gone through with it and love their results! But because finances won’t allow it i will accept what i have for the time being ? im grateful i naturally birthed 2 beautiful boys and was able to nourish them with breast feeding. The first had BM for 5 months due to complications and the second till aged close to 2 years old.

I love being a mother! i have a love-hate relationship with my body’s appearance however mostly im grateful and in awe of what it can do! Birthing and raising children has been the biggest blessing i could ever be bestowed and im forever grateful for such a privilege ?

Huge thanks to all the mothers sharing their stories on this page. You have helped me more than you can ever imagine! It helped me normalise my mother body and accept it. Xxx

Categories: 5+ Years Postpartum, Belly, Breasts, Mom over 30, Postpartum, PPD - Postpartum Depression, Second Pregnancy, Submissions

A brief update and something EXCITING!

I exist.

I maybe ceased existing for a little while there dealing with heavy anxiety and a little depression on the side. But I exist again. I hope.

School has started so I am ultra busy now but I will do my best to stay up to date here and with our various places on social media (links at the bottom of the page). In the mean time, it would be a huge help to me if you would share your stories! To keep SOAM running I need regular entries posted and coming up with content on my own is difficult while I am also trying to keep up in school – besides the whole point of SOAM is to hear everyone else’s stories, not just mine! So click here and submit your story. Include anything you feel is important – photos, nude or not, your words or just a brief description. You are helping to change the world here.

And now for my news! I am really excited that GrokNation picked up this piece I’ve written about how skin tells your life story. It comes from a decade of listening to women and pondering about life is and what beauty is. I am very proud of the piece and thrilled to be able to share my thoughts with the world. Check it out and pass it on if you like it.

Categories: In the Media, My Own Ramblings, News
Check out repealhydeartproject.org for more information the Hyde Amendment.

Check out repealhydeartproject.org for more information the Hyde Amendment.

I stumbled across this picture the other day on Facebook and shared it there, but I wanted to share it here, too. SOAM is inherently a feminist website, which makes it a political website, but I sometimes hesitate to get too overtly political here because so many of the women here hold such varying views and SOAM is for all women and I want no one to feel alienated. My intentions are true, but my action to uphold them has been erroneous. The political climate of the past year, and particularly since the US election last November has been becoming increasingly hostile to women and minorities. If SOAM is about creating a space to openly love the postpartum body, that is feminist. And feminism is not truly feminism unless it acknowledges and embraces intersectionality. (Here is a good explanation of intersectionality if you want a primer. I acknowledge that Laci Green has taken a turn for the strange in recent months, but this video remains excellent.)

I can’t not at least refer to the events of this past weekend here in the US, but I want to say more than just that I denounce the actions and opinions of the AltRight, of these American Nazi Terrorists. This image gave me the words I need to say.

SOAM is, as a feminist website, as an organization for women, a direct supporter of the Black Lives Matter movement. SOAM directly supports the Jewish population of the US. SOAM directly supports the LGBTQ community. Within this umbrella of intersectionality, of reproductive justice, SOAM is directly tied to all these groups.

Reproductive justice is not merely reproductive rights; it is a far more vast concept. Reproductive rights include the right to a safe abortion, the right to birth control, and the right to preventative healthcare for women’s bodies, but reproductive rights end there. Reproductive justice encompasses all that and so, so much more. Reproductive justice includes welfare and healthcare for children born too poor mothers. It includes justice for children born to mothers or fathers in prisons, and it includes the rights of those mothers to give birth in a safe and sane environment. It includes environmental justice because children have the right to grow up in a place with access to clean water (looking at you, Flint, MI) or a nontoxic environment. It includes BLM and other movements to protect minorities because a child should have a right to grow up. Period.

SOAM is inherently a feminist website and therefore the events of this past weekend are directly related to SOAM. Our focus is and always will be on the postpartum body, but after a tragic event like this I am here to tell the world that we love you and we support you and we stand with you. I went out Sunday night to my local vigil held for Heather Heyer, Lieutenant H. Jay Cullen, and Trooper Berke M.M. Bates and the most powerful message I took away was that there are far more of us (workers for equality and love) than there are of them (Nazis). We will win.

Mamas and papas, love your communities. I stand with you in love.

Categories: Activism, My Own Ramblings, News